tongue, but he kept it to himself. The kid was beginning to freak me out. Like he knew all sorts of nasty things that were about to happen but was hesitant to tell us as if he were protecting us from their exposure.
âWhatâs with him?â BT dragged a huge couch over to me. I donât even know where he got it from.
âBeats me.â But again, I kind of knew. In my head, I was berating Tommy for not cluing us in, and yet here I was doing the same damn thing. Frigging irony is a bitch, nope wait, itâs karma thatâs a bitch. So whatâs that make irony? An asshole, perhaps?
BT dropped the couch and sat down heavily, Gary next to him, Mad Jack taking up the far end. Ron and Nancy started dragging in folding chairs and barstools and basically anything someone could sit on including a bean bag that had been around since the Nixon era. In an impromptu gathering, the entire household save one was present. I wrote out the list of people for a couple of reasons, the first I guess is just historical fact and second because it would never happen again. Not with this cast of characters anyway, and those that died they at least deserved this small mention. Ron; Nancy; their three kids, Meredith, Mark, and Melissa; Gary; Mad Jack; Trip and his wife, Stephanie; my sister Lyndsey, her husband Steve, and their kid Jesse; Tracyâs mom, Carol; the four kids weâd saved from the convenience store, Dizz, Sty, Ryan, and his sister Angel; me; Tracy; and a very pregnant Nicole, along with Travis and both of our adopted kids, Tommy and Porkchop; plus Dennis and Jessâs baby brother, Zachary. The only noticeable absence was Justin, who had not said more than a handful of words to anyone in the last week. Even Henry and his new friends were with us. I noticed he was very cozy with the female dog, though I was having a hard time remembering her name for some reason. The cat, Patches, thankfully stayed away from me as if she knew that I was not all that fond of felines and may never again be, given my exposure to them. Iâd talked to Ron a couple of times about her suddenly finding herself out in the woods really far away from the house, but he would hear none of it.
I think it was Trip that cracked out the beer. âLetâs get this party started!â he shouted right before lighting his bong, taking a huge hit, and then downing the âwaterâ which was actually beer that heâd used as a filtration system. Ron could only shake his head. Normally, heâd kick the stoner outside to do it. But right now, we were all together. Living, laughing, and loving, and in reality, thatâs all that life is about.
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Mike Journal Entry 3
I t was another week . The most exciting thing that had happened was that the damned cat had killed a mouse and left it by my bedroom door. I swear it was a warning. Like she was saying, âTalk about getting rid of me again, and this could be you.â We both steered clear of each other; seemed safer that way. The more seemingly secure we were, the more anxious I felt. I had been burning at such a high intensity for so long, I didnât know any other way. I didnât consider myself an adrenaline junkie; I didnât want to bungee off anything. I didnât know what my problem was. I kept waiting for something to happen. More times than not, Tracy would wake to find me peering out the window at the yard below and the woods beyond. Something was fucking out there; I knew in the depths of my ragged soul it was, and its black beady eyes were peering back at me.
âMike?â
My chest rose and fell at a rate that belied the stillness of the night.
âMike, come back to bed,â Tracy entreated.
âThereâs something out there.â
âWhat? Where?â She got out of bed and joined me at the window. She was none too pleased, and also alarmed, when she realized I was talking about the abstract. âWeâve been through