came, her head began to throb in earnest. Pressing her fingersto her temple, she closed her eyes and ran his name, his face, his kiss through her mind again.
Nothing. No inkling that she knew him, that she remembered him. All she encountered were more blank pages. Her heart picked up a panicked beat at that realization, and she was forced to acknowledge that her memory was filled with far too many blank pages. Swallowing hard, she opened her eyes and found his gaze fastened on her as though he were sizing her up. The idea that he might be, unnerved herâalmost as much as her inability to remember.
âDo I know you?â she blurted out and immediately regretted asking the question. Of course she must know the man, Claire reasoned. Why else would he be at the hospital? And why else would he have planted that toe-curling kiss on her?
âYeah. I guess you could say you know me,â he said, his mouth hardening, his dark brows slashing in a frown. âAfter all, I am your husband.â
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âM-my husband!â
Matt clenched his jaw as the color drained from Claireâs face. He felt as though heâd been kicked in the gut. For a few moments when she had kissed him back, he had thoughtâ¦he had allowed himself to believe that she still loved him, that she had forgiven him.
Frustration and disappointment slammed at him like punishing fists. He jammed his hands into his pockets to keep from reaching for her again. Damn, what an idiot heâd been. Only an idiot would have let himself believe that Claireâs brush with violence had somehow changed things between them and wiped out the six miserable months since sheâd left him.
Now as he stared at her too-pale face, saw the bewilderment clouding her cinnamon-brown eyes, he bit back a curse at his own lack of caution. How could he have been so reckless? Jeff had warned him that something like this might happen. That the blow to Claireâs head and her disoriented state could be an indication of something more serious.
Only he hadnât heeded Jeffâs warnings to take things slowly. No, heâd been too eaten up with guilt for failing to protect her. And heâd been scared spitless that he might lose her forever. When she had finally opened her eyes, looked up at him and hadnât turned away, heâd been too staggered by relief to think beyond the fact that she was all right.
Then she had touched him. And his ability to think at all had gone right out of the window. Claireâs touch, the softness of her voice after so many months without both had been like a lifeline being thrown to a drowning man. So, heâd snatched it, held on to it with both fists. Kissing her hadnât been an option. Suddenly it had been as necessary to him as taking his next breath. And without considering the consequences, he had given in to his own selfish needs.
âWeâre married?â
Her question yanked Matt from his self-recriminations. âYeah,â he replied, frowning. He didnât need to be a rocket scientist to figure out that she was having trouble remembering things. Probably some kind of memory loss because of that blow to her head. What he didnât know was how extensive that memory loss was or how much he should tell her. If she didnât remember him and their marriage, she evidently didnât remember that they were separated, either. Should he tell her? he wondered, reluctant to reveal that piece of news when beneath her confusion a trace of desire still lingered in her eyes. Selfishbastard that he was, he decided to say nothing. He would rather cope with her confusion and anxiety than have Claire revert to the polite civility sheâd treated him with since their split.
âIâm sorry,â she said, her voice fragile. She rubbed at the spot between her brows again. âThings are a bit fuzzy. And Iâ¦I seem to be having a little trouble remembering things.â
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