car were on fire and she had ten seconds to save her own life.
Which, come to think of it, may not have been that far from the truth.
She had made a big fat mistake. One of those mistakes that happened to other, dumber women who ended up crying their eyes out on some relationship expertâs shoulder on national television.
She hadnât planned to sleep with her ownhusband. It was winter, for crying out loud. She hadnât even shaved her legs.
For three weeks afterward she held her breath, praying to God and all the saints that their stupidity hadnât resulted in a middle-aged pregnancy. She had the feeling Ryan heard her sigh of relief all the way up there in Boston.
Not that they had had any direct communication since the engagement party. They had been hiding behind Alexis and their lawyers, passing messages back and forth like grade-school kids behind their teacherâs back.
If their daughters ever got wind of what had happened, they would immediately jump to the wrong conclusion. Her children were adults, but they clung to the childish hope that their parents would somehow get back together.
She had bumped into Alexis as she ran upstairs after the incident in the Toyota. Kate had been wild with emotion, almost crazy. She had yanked her wedding ring off her finger and flung it into the deepest recesses of the top drawer of her old dresser. It wasnât until she turned around and saw her middle child standing in the doorway looking both puzzled and horrified that she managed to pull in the reins on her romantic craziness and settle back down into being the mother of the bride.
She thought about the ring sometimes, but she had yet to drive back out to the house and retrieveit. There was always something else to do, somewhere else she needed to be. She knew she could ask Taylor to FedEx it to her but she hadnât done that yet either.
Maybe there was something symbolic about tossing the ring into the darkness of a forgotten drawer. At first she had felt naked without her ring, but after a while she grew used to the feeling. Maybe she should gather up all of those old, troublesome memories and throw them into the darkness with the ring and be done with all of it.
The truth was that fiery interlude in the rental car hadnât changed a thing between them. The wheels of divorce kept on rolling as the weeks slipped away. In fact, they could have signed the final papers yesterday before she flew out of New York but somehow it didnât seem right for parents to end their marriage one week before their daughterâs wedding.
Weddings were about living happily ever after. Nobody wanted a reminder that sometimes not even love was enough to keep two people together.
She wouldnât be able to avoid him once Wedding Week began. That much was certain. They would walk their daughter down the aisle together. They would pose for pictures together. They would step out onto the dance floor together as the parents of the bride.
Temptation would be everywhere, but this time she would be prepared.
She would stay away from champagne, hide indoors when the moon was high and bright in the sky, and she would definitely stay away from rented Toyotas and the men who drove them.
But it had been so wonderful to see him again at the partyâ¦to share a secret smile as they toasted their daughterâs happinessâ¦to melt into his arms as she had in the beginning when it was all new and wonderful and Paris still beckoned them like a glittering golden dreamâ¦.
Laughter drifted up from the bistro on the corner and carried with it the intoxicating scents of old dark Gauloises, buttery onions and wine so deep and red it stained your lips when you drank it. If she closed her eyes and blocked out the traffic and the laughter, she could almost hear the wistful notes of La Vie en Rose.
She brought herself up short. These trips down memory lane were getting her nowhere but depressed.
She was in Paris, the