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    She’d been looking forward to seeing this game. The Rangers were having a great season. But even if they weren’t, she loved the way the men moved on the ice, as though they were weightless, all the while balanced on knife blades. It made lacrosse look graceless, just a bunch of people lumbering over some grass. But as she looked for the doorway to her seat, she felt dread roiling in her stomach. The game mattered to all the other people the way it had once mattered to her, but now she was just killing time before she had to go home.
    She found the doorway and stepped through. Most of the seats were already occupied and she had to sidle past a group of ruddy-faced guys. They craned their necks to look around her, past the glass divider, to where the game had already started. The stadium smelled cold, the way the air did after a snowstorm. But even as her team skated toward a goal, her thoughts flickered back to her mother and Tom. She shouldn’t have left the way she had. She wished she could do it over. She wouldn’t even have bothered with her mother. She would have punched Tom in the face. And then, looking just at him, she would have said, “I expected as much from her, but I would have thought better of you.” That would have been perfect.
    Or maybe she could have smashed the windows of his car. But the car was really a piece of junk, so maybe not.
    She could have gone over to Tom’s house though, and told his parents about the dime bag of weed he kept between his mattress and box spring. Between that and this thing with Val’s mother, maybe his family would have sent him off to some detention facility for mom-fucking, drug-addict freaks.
    As for her mother, the best revenge Val could ever have would be to call her dad, get her stepmother, Linda, on speakerphone, and tell them the whole thing. Val’s dad and Linda had a perfect marriage, the kind that came with two adorable, drooling kids and wall-to-wall carpeting and mostly made Val sick. But telling them would make the story theirs. They would tell it whenever they wanted, shout it at Val’s mother when they fought, report it to shock their golfing buddies. It was Val’s story and she was going to control it.
    There was a roar from the audience. All around her, people jumped to their feet. One of the Rangers had thrown some guy from the other team down and was ripping off his own gloves. The referee grabbed hold of the Ranger, and his skate slid, slicing a line across the other player’s cheek. As they were cleared away, Val stared at the blood on the ice. A man in white came and scraped up most of it and the Zamboni smoothed the ice during halftime, but a patch of red remained, as though the stain had soaked so deep it couldn’t be drawn out. Even as her team made the final winning goal and everyone near her surged to their feet again, Val couldn’t seem to look away from the blood.
    After the game, Val followed the crowd out onto the street. The train station was only a few steps away, but she couldn’t face going home. She wanted to delay a little longer, until she could figure things out, dissect what had happened a little more. The very idea of getting back on the train filled her with a sick panic that made her pulse race and her stomach churn.
    She started to walk and, after a while, she noticed that the street numbers got smaller and the buildings got older, lanes narrowed and the traffic thinned out. Turning left, toward what she thought might be the edge of the West Village, she passed closed clothing stores and rows of parked cars. She wasn’t quite sure of the time, but it had to be nearly midnight.
    Her mind kept unraveling the looks between Tom and her mother, glances that now had meaning, hints she should have picked up on. She saw her mother’s face, some weird combination of guilt and honesty, when she’d told Val to wait for Tom. The memory made Val flinch, as though her body were trying to throw off a physical weight.
    She