couldnât do that either, despite himself and his private demons.
Theyâd met during his last case. She was wealthy, pampered, and bossy, a pint-sized whirlwind who was far out of his league and whom he would have steered clear of except for one thingâsomeone had been trying to kill her. As the case proceeded, he discovered that under her rich-kid facade, Angie had a heart that was bigger than her fatherâs fortune. Although she could have used a bundle of her daddyâs money to hide somewhere until the danger passed, when things got tough she stuck with Paavo, giving him all her trust. After he was wounded, Angie, the delicate debutante, taught him, the hard-nosed cop, about other kinds of brave.
Heâd fallen for her like a loser in cement shoes going off a pier and had spent the last two months recuperating and living a fantasy life that Angie was the main part of. Sheâd stayed near him day and night while heâd been in the hospital. When he was able to leave, he decided to go to the tiny apartment of Aulis Kokkonen, the elderly Finnish man who had raised Paavo and his older sister from the time they were young children. Angie would bring big pots and platters of minestrone, cacciatore, lasagnaâanything she thought might be interesting, healthy, and filling. She always brought plenty because Aulis was a little too thin, and his cupboard a little too bare, to suit her. In time, Paavo was able to go back to his own house. She practically moved in.
But then, Christmas and New Yearâs arrived and Angie had to go to her parentsâ large winter estate in Scottsdale to spend the holidays with her family. As Paavo faced those days alone and realized heâd soon be going back to work, cold reality set in.
It was time to get on with his life. His real life. Would Angie fit into it? Given their backgrounds, their differences, one part of him had to admit she probably wouldnât, but another part of him couldnât say good-bye. Angie was the only thing in his life he couldnât be coldly practical about, much to his dismay but also much to his joy.
The flowers had arrived shortly after he did this morning. It felt strange to be back in the Hall of Justice squad room without his old partner, Matt Kowalskiâwithout seeing Mattâs slightly balding head down on his desk, taking yet another nap. That was the other thing that happened during his last case. Matt had been killedâ¦and a part of Paavo was emptier, colder.
The showy, heavily scented flowers made Paavoâs head feel stuffy, made the air thick, the way it had been at Mattâs funeral. But now, within the barely controlled chaos of homicideâs squad room, voices around him spoke of sudden death on the street and within shabby rooms where there were no flowers, often no light. That their world was without flowers and sentiment was something Paavoâs colleagues would miss no opportunity to remind him of.
âMm, sure smells good around here, man.â Inspector Luis Calderon, an eighteen-year veteran, stopped in his tracks and lifted his nose in the air. âAm I still at work?â he asked Inspector Bo Benson, âor is this the perfume counter at Nordstromâs?â
âWhat dâyou know about Nordstromâs, Luis?â Benson jabbed Calderon in the shoulder. âThe only perfume you ever smelled was a hookerâs.â
Calderon widened his eyes in horror. âDonât go using those low-class words around him.â He pointed his thumb toward Paavo. âHeâs gone high society on us.â
Paavo folded his arms. âYou twoâll never make it as comedians. Go solve a murderâmaybe your own, if you keep up that talk.â
âOooooh, Iâm like scared, man,â Calderon said, looking at Benson. âHow about you?â
âLeave him alone.â The one and only woman in Homicide, Rebecca Mayfield, whoâd just recently been