want a husband now?â
âEverybody in this life needs a partner.â
âI donât.â
âYou need someone. Whatâs going to happen when I die? Whoâs going to take care of you? When youâre all alone and old? Your brothers? Whoâll wipe your nose when youâre sick?â
âIâll wipe my own nose! Iâll call a friend! Hire someoneâIâll put signs on tree trunks for a nose-wiper!â
âYou need someone, Mina. You need to have . . .â
âEverything you didnât have?â Mina finished the sentence for her.
âNo, Mina,â Darya said quietly. âNot everything I didnât have. Everything I had . I want you to taste life the way I have. To give you a fraction of what I was given. I want you to have a passion. I want you to fall in love like I fell in love.â
âYour marriage was arranged.â
âIt wasnât arranged. It was . . . encouraged. I got to know your father. I took the time. I loved my mother. I knew she wouldnât do me wrong. Because my mother . . .â
Darya broke off and cried silently into her hands. Her mother had been killed by a bomb during the Iran-Iraq War. She had been buying pomegranates at the greengrocerâs downtown when the bomb blew the grocerâs wooden stalls into shreds. Darya often cried when she talked of Mamani.
Minaâs body grew slack as she remembered asking Mamani for those pomegranates years ago. But she forced her body up straight. Daryaâs tears over Mamani were nothing new.
âBecause . . .â Darya looked up, her face wet but suddenly calm. âBecause, Mina, my mother gave me a gift when I was nineteen. Donât you see? She gave me a gift, and at the time I was young too and foolish and couldnât appreciate what sheâd found for me. I attended my own wedding only because in those days we didnât refuse our parentsâ choices. It took years for me to realize what she had done for me. The happiness that she placed into my hands.â
Mina thought of the man in the bathroom next door, sitting on his knees and squeezing putty onto pink tiles. She thought of her fatherâs few wiry hairs, his uneven teeth and self-help tapes, his bulging stomach, and the way he listened to American songs on the radio, hearing the lyrics all wrong. Thatâs the gift Mamani gave her? Thatâs the happiness Darya was talking about?
âItâs ridiculous,â Mina said. âYou canât pick a spouse for someone else. How do you know whatâs right for them?â
âItâs been done for centuries. This, the way they do it here, this is ridiculous. You canât pick a spouse for yourself. How does one person, one young person know whatâs right for them? When you were fifteen, did you think the way you do now? Well, when youâre thirty, youâll look back on today and laugh at your thoughts. Itâs like anything else when youâre young. Vegetables. Cod liver oil. A jacket on a seemingly warm day. Your mother says take it, itâs good for you. You refuse, it seems unnecessary. Then you realize she knew you better than you knew yourself. Thatâs why sheâs your mother.â
Daryaâs red bun bounced as she talked. âDonât you think I know how you feel? I cried like you cry by yourself at nights now. I didnât want to get married, didnât even find Baba attractive. I wanted to get a PhD in mathematics and become a professor. I always thought I would contribute something huge to academia, that I would be remembered for a theorem or proof or something . I never thought Iâd be sitting with Kavita and Yung-Ja on Saturdays solving equations no one would ever see. I couldnât even imagine not being a famous mathematician back then. When my mother introduced your father to me, I hated him. I hated her for pushing him on me. I spent several months,