To Live and To Love (Black Wolf Agency Book 1) Read Free Page B

her sweet French accent, her teary hazel eyes meeting his. “I don’t want to live like this anymore.”
    “What do you mean? Are you not happy here…? With me…?” he asked, his nervous heart pounding hard in his chest. He didn’t like where this was going…and hoped the answer was not him.
    “No, it’s not you, James. Of course it’s not you. I love you. No, it’s what I am. I’m not an evil person, but what I am is evil.”
    “How can any part of you be evil? You’ve never killed anyone. You feed on donated blood and animal blood? And that is saying a lot since some of the people I deal with seem to think that is a huge inconvenience not to kill people. You, on the other hand, are nothing like the other vampires.”
    “I know, but if I wait too long to feed, there’s no telling what I might do. I feel like just me being here is endangering you.”
    “I know you won’t hurt me, Kate.”
    “How can you be so sure of that when I don’t even know myself?”
    “I know in my heart you would never hurt me, sweetheart,” he said, taking both of her hands and holding them tight. When Kate pulled her hands away, James felt his heart sink a little further in his chest.
    “James, I’m a vampire and you’re– well, as wonderful as you are, you’re just a normal human. I love you, but I am tired, tired of this half life, and you deserve so much more. If I leave now you can move on.”
    “Normal humans have no idea of the dangers that exist in this world or things that I know about. So, no, Kate, I am far from normal.”
    “Just because you’re soundly skilled, doesn’t mean you’ll be able to defend yourself against one of my kind if they attack you. I am being serious here, and you should listen-”
    “I am listening, but you are not listening to me. I already have proved my abilities, Kate! Remember the vampire we resurrected? The one who originally converted you? Was it not I, who plunged the stake in his heart to kill him? I did it to save you, and now you are talking about leaving me.”
    “You were lucky.”
    "Maybe, but I did it for you nonetheless.”
    “I don’t want you dying for me… or because of me.”
    “So, what are you saying? That it is okay for me to go out a risk my life every day for the good of the world, but when it comes to you, that I was just lucky, and I should sit behind the desk and smile. Really? It that how you think of me, and all that we mean to one another?”
    “I have already made up my mind. Do you know how old I am, how many lives I have seen? Too many. I love you, but I have to do this. Please, let me go, but, before I leave, I want to watch the sunrise with you.”
    “But that’ll kill you! How can you even ask that of me?”
    “Yes, it’s the death I’ve been dreaming of for three-hundred years, since the day my heart stopped beating. My hope is since I’ve always tried to be a good person; there will be a wonderful afterlife waiting for me, better than this life. I want you to be happy for me.”
    “No, Kate… I love you,” James said, tears beginning to fall from his eyes.
    “I know… I love you, too,” Kate confessed, her eyes glazed over with tears as well.
    Their eyes met for a moment. All Kate could see was pain.
    When James gazed into Kate’s eyes, all he could see was pain and longing. He had no idea how difficult of a life she had had. To dream of how much better the afterlife might be than the life she was living, proved to him that she wasn’t happy. He was being selfish by wanting her to stay one more lifetime with him.
    “Will you watch the sunrise with me?” Kate asked, managing to smile through her tears.
    The pain James was feeling at that moment was unbearable. Without a word, he forced a smile and nodded. For once in his life, he did not have a comeback; he was losing his best friend and lover forever, there didn’t really seem to be any words to describe it.
    They stood up, walked out onto the balcony outside the living