didnât speak Tagalog much. The aunties said Iâd regret it when I gotolder, but I figured Iâd regret lots of things by then, so add it to the list.
But music is the perfect language because everyone can speak it. Itâs not hindered by words. Thereâs no room for misinterpretation. Thereâs only the essence, the emotion of what we communicate to each other. Take sadness or anger or even joy. We try to explain how we feel, but there arenât always the right words, or the words we have fail. But with music, you can hear a piece and say, Yeah, thatâs it. Thatâs exactly how I feel . Especially jazz. I love how it can make you feel really laid-back or even sad, but not feel despair.
Today the music Iâm playing is all minor chords.
I sense someone in front of me and open my eyes. Jenny smiles at me.
âWhat?â I say loudly before remembering to take off my headphones. âSorry, Jenny.â I put the bass down next to its amp beside my bed.
âNo problem. You hungry?â
âYeah.â
She hands me a fork and a plate of scrambled eggs, toast, and bacon.
âItâs cold,â I say, but eat it anyway.
âItâs almost noon.â Translation: Get your butt downstairs earlier for breakfast . âYou up late?â she asks, watching me eat,leaning against my desk with her arms crossed in front of her. Sheâs still got on her workout clothesâblack leggings and a gray T-shirtâso itâs probably been a slow morning. Jennyâs in great shape, and works hard for it five mornings a week at the gym.
âYeah,â I say with my mouth full of bread.
âMmm-hmm.â She reaches out and touches my shirt. âSleep in your clothes again? Didnât I buy you new pjâs a week ago?â
She waits for me to answer, but I put some more food in my mouth. Jennyâs not stupid. She cuts through the bull, but sheâs got a gentle touch. Thereâs not much you can pull over her. I like that about her. You know exactly where you stand. This morning sheâs hovering between Iâm going to speak to your father and You can talk to me. Iâm here for you .
âYour dad left early. Someone called from the store.â
Dad works as a district manager for a chain of department stores. Heâs always being called into work. Itâs cool because I get free clothes all the time. But it keeps him pretty busy, especially the past few months.
âHeâd like us to have dinner together. You have plans?â
âI was going to hang with Sebastian later. Maybe get some practice in.â
âIâm making chicken piccata.â
âOkay, yeah, that sounds good.â Jennyâs best dishes are alwaysItalian, probably because thatâs her background. Sheâs got tons of secret family recipes that she and her sisters fight over.
The first year Jenny lived with us, she tried to cook Filipino food, which Dad thought was cute. Grace reminded her each time that we didnât just eat Filipino food, which was true, but it was our comfort food.
Jenny started with adobo . Now, everyone knows that each family makes adobo differently, some with chicken, some with pork, some more dry. Jenny found a recipe that called for coconut milk. Mom never used coconut milk. I know she was trying to please us, but yeah, it didnât come out right.
I will say, Mom makes a perfect adobo , better than the auntiesâ, though Iâd never tell them that. Sometimes Iâll order it at a restaurant. Itâs never the same. I explained it once to Jenny: adobo âs like Italians and their pasta sauce. She stopped trying after that. The aunties taught her how to make awesome lumpia , though, and sheâll make that every now and then.
âGood. Dinnerâs at six p.m.,â Jenny says.
Weâre discussing food, but weâre not talking food. Jennyâs subtext is, Weâre worried about you. We