want to be it was the cop with the bad kid. Heâd seen it, they all had, but that wasnât how it was, and if he tried to tell them, grab one of the detectives and put him straight, heâd just get pissed off and forget himself and want to put a fist in someoneâs eye.
He paced, getting to know a little route from the ER to the front desk to the vending machines. He had just turned to walk back down the quiet hallway from staring at the candy bars he didnât want when he saw the Captain moving up the hallway, nodding at him and talking out of the side of his mouth to a young Spanish kid in a rumpled suit who was carrying a notebook, and Brendan had to think about that, about his kidâs name and his name and Kathleenâs in the chicken scrawl of ahomicide copâs notes stuffed in a file somewhere, and their life reduced to a shorthand narrative passed from the cops to some bored ADA and then the newspapers and TV to circle back to him through family and friends.
âBrendan.â The Captain put his hand on his arm, and Brendan nodded but couldnât say anything. âIâm so sorry. How is Kathleen?â
He cleared his throat and pointed down the hall toward where heâd last seen her, in the chapel with Francine Parkman. âSheâs hanging in.â
âI canât imagine.â The Captain was tall, big across the shoulders, going bald now. He was a tough fucker, and the guys all liked him. A Jew among Irish and Italian Catholics, a guy who almost never raised his voice, almost never sounded like brass usually sounded, like they were trying to shut you down before you got a chance to say anything.
Now the kid was putting his hand out. Brendan wondered if he was Dominicanâhe reminded Brendan of guys he knew from the neighborhood. Wide but not fat, muscled in his arms, with skin the color of milky coffee and the close-shaved head all the young guys had now.
âDanny Martinez.â
âBrendan Donovan.â
The Captain put his hand on Martinezâs sleeve. âDanny is Violent Crimes. Heâs the guy who put that Derrick Leon and his friends away.â Brendan remembered Derrick Leon, one of those scarred, wild-eyed gunmen who came out of the drug trade once in a while, moving up fast by killing everyone he knew, and Brendan remembered heâd been locked up but didnât knowwhoâd done it. This Martinez kid looked about twenty-two, and something about him was more bookworm than street cop. Little wire-rim glasses and a way of taking the room in from the corner of his eyes, though you never knew. The Captain turned back to Brendan.
âWhat are the doctors saying?â
âTheyâre waiting on X-rays. Heâs in, heâs unconscious, but theyâre saying heâs got eye movement and thatâs a good sign. Heâs got a . . .â Brendan had to clear his throat again. He tapped his right temple. âHe got hit in the temple, but it looks like the bullet didnât penetrate the skull.â
Martinez cocked his head. âSmall caliber, like a .22 or something?â
Brendan shook his head. âHavenât seen the slug, but maybe. Maybe it was a misfire or ricochet or something.â
âYeah, the stuff we recovered at the scene looked to be all nine mil.â He flipped through the little book, checking. â âCourse it could have been two guns, and we havenât found all the slugs.â
The Captain grabbed Brendanâs hand. âMichaelâs a strong kid. And whatever he needs, you know heâs got it.â He looked at his watch. âIâll be back later. You need anything, you call me direct.â He let go of Brendan and touched Martinez on the sleeve. âWeâre getting these guys. Thereâs no question about that. None. Danny is the best guy in Violent Crimes, and this is our first priority.â
For today,
Brendan thought. Today and maybe tomorrow and