Meryl had encouraged her mother to try to sell some of her work. But Rose had huffed and said, âItâs just a hobby. Your generation only wants to turn play into work instead of finding an honest profession.â Meryl found it sad that her mother couldnât even fully embrace the joy she got from painting. Her mother never seemed to find joy in much of anythingâever. And Meryl never quite understood why.
âYouâre really going to do this to Meg?â
âIâm not doing anything. This is about the choices you made, Meryl.â When her mother was angry, the Polish accent became more pronounced. âWhat did you think was going to happen when you married a man of poor character? Of course your daughter doesnât know any better.â
Meryl sighed. âMom, itâs just dinner. Iâm not asking you to walk her down the aisle. Itâs a family dinner, and Iâd like for you to be a part of it. Donât you want to meet her fiancé and his family?â
âI donât need to meet him. I know all about that family. A bunch of anti-Semites.â
âThey are not anti-Semites, Mom.â Just Republicans. Stop it, she told herself.
âI canât sleep at night, you know.â
âBecause of Megâs engagement?â Meryl asked incredulously.
âThe club where they want to have the wedding used to be restricted. I expected more from Meg,â said Rose. âBut then, why should I expect anything when youâve done nothing to make them value who they are and where they come from.â
Meryl sighed. Roseâs criticism was nothing new, but it was difficult to take from a woman who never spoke about the country where sheâd been born, never shared photographs of her childhood, had not raised her particularly Jewishâand yet had been endlessly, blatantly hostile toward her marriage outside the Jewish faith. Her mother acted as though Meryl had turned her back on some rich heritageâas if sheâd raised Meryl in some parallel universe.
Meryl had thought her relationship with her mother might mend when Meg was born. Surely there was nothing better for a mother and daughter to bond over than a new babyâa first grandchild! But any hope for a new beginning was dashed when, upon hearing Meryl and Hughâs choice of name for their baby, her mother refused to speak to them or to see the baby for the first month of her life. And then, the only thing she said to Meryl was that she had âdishonoredâ her grandparents by failing to name the baby after one of them so that âtheir soul can rest in peace.â To be honest, the Jewish tradition of naming the baby after a deceased family member had never even occurred to Meryl. She had been so charmed by Hughâs idea of naming the baby after a character in Little Women. Back then, she had found all Hughâs quirks and obsessions romantic and endearing.
Her mother turned back to the television, tight-lipped, her hands clutching the remote as if it were the controls of a plane losing altitude.
Meryl thought of the food hastily shoved into the refrigerator at home, the flowers that needed to be bought, and the unfortunate possibility of Meg, Stowe, and Tippy somehow arriving at the apartment before her.
âLook, Mom, I really would like for you to be there.â
It was an understatement. She was surprised by how very much she wanted her mother by her side for dinner that night. Yes, she had three grown daughters of her own. Still, she sometimes yearned for her mother. But she had learned long ago to accept Roseâs limitations. As she used to tell Meg, Jo, and Amy: âYou get what you get, and you donât get upset.â
Meryl took another deep breath, trying not to get too emotional. âAnd I know the girls want you to be there. It would mean a lot to us. But obviously I canât force you out of this apartment and into a cab. So Iâm going