said it kept her occupied when he was working long hours at the hospital where heâd been employed for most of his time in Australia.
She used to have a go at anything, had often been reckless, but it had seemed as if sheâd had a charmedlife. Until one Saturday morning, when theyâd had words because he hadnât been free to do what sheâd wanted which was to try out her new car.
Heâd been on duty at the hospital, and as far as heâd been concerned, his patients had come first, so Cassie had set off in a huff and while driving along a remote road in the outback, the driver of a large oncoming truck had swerved into her path. The consequences had been disastrousâheâd lost his wife in a matter of seconds.
The accident had been six months ago and coming to terms with it had been grim. Thankfully theyâd had no children to be left motherless. Theyâd both been of a like mind, that there had been plenty of time for that, though for very different reasons.
On Cassieâs part, it had been because she hadnât been quite ready to give up what sheâd seen as her freedom. But on Harryâs part, it had been because heâd had a baby brother who had died from a genetic illness when he had been just a child himself. Yet, heâd been old enough to experience the frightening feeling of loss, and growing up as the remaining child of grief-stricken parents, the fear of bringing a child into the world and then losing it always lurked in the recesses of his mind.
Heâd seen his mother weeping and his fatherâs permanently sad expression, and had thought that it was better not to have babies if the angels were going to take them up to heaven.
âIâm sorry I was late arriving,â the young nurse beside him was saying apologetically, and bringing his thoughts back to bear on why he was standing there, Harry said briskly, âThatâs OK, just as long as it isnât a habit.â
Hoping that in days to come the new senior partner wouldnât feel that unavoidable came into the same category as a habit, Phoebe managed a strained smile. Then picking up the case that held what she needed for her patients, she went quickly out through the main door of the surgery.
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Her first call of the day was to the home of a man who had just been diagnosed with insulin-dependent diabetes. Frank Atkinson was a newly retired forestry worker and sheâd explained the procedure of injecting himself the previous day. Now she was on her way to check if he was having any problems.
Always a frightening ordeal at first, most people soon got into a routine and accepted the inevitability of it. Sure enough, when she arrived at a pretty thatched cottage on the coast road she found that he had coped and was less agitated than on the day before.
As was often the case, there was hospitality on offer. His wife Betty, who knew something of the circumstances of the young district nurse, had coffee and shortbread waiting when Phoebe had finished dealing with her husband.
âI wonât say no,â she said thankfully. âMy little one is teething and was really out of sorts this morning, so I didnât have time to have any breakfast. I mustnât linger, though. We have a new doctor in charge of the practice and Iâve already made a poor start by being late, so donât want to transgress any further! He has the look of a man who doesnât suffer fools gladly.â
âSurely he will make allowances for you being a single mother,â Betty protested.
âI suppose he might if he knew, but we only met last night. He doesnât yet know I have a child, and when he does I wonât be expecting any favours. It wouldnât be fair to the rest of the staff.â
When she was ready to go, Betty walked to the bottom of the garden path with her. Wistfully she said, âUnder any other circumstances, Frank would have been holding forth about
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