the book review.â
âBut years ago, when you were a regular reporter?â
âYes, of course, but that was different.â I wished Dalakis would sit down. Iâve never liked people standing directly over me. âSo what do you think of the doctorâs house?â
Dalakis looked around as if noticing it for the first time. His movements are slow, as is his speech. When we were adolescents someone was always shouting, âHurry up, Carl!â
âIt seems large for one person,â said Dalakis.
âPerhaps he entertains a lot.â
âBut how wonderful to have all these flowers. Do you think he grows them himself?â
In the library too were vases of red flowers. I had hardly noticed them even though their smell filled the room.
âI have no idea,â I answered.
âDo you think he reads all these books?â
âProbably. He was always a great reader.â
âI donât see where he finds the time.â Dalakis glanced at the books as if he found their presence burdensome.
We were silent a moment. Sometimes it seems that we talk not to communicate but just so the other person wonât think any worse of us, so we at least stay the same in his eyes, that what we are really doing is waiting for his attention to be lifted from us.
âSo how have you been since I last saw you?â I asked. âDid your daughter get married?â
âIâm afraid so. Itâs been a great trial. Not the marriage, of course, but their move. Now she lives five hundred miles away and I havenât known what to do with myself. I guess that partly explains my being here tonight. I would have crossed the entire city, Iâm that bored.â
Dalakisâs wife deserted him about seventeen years ago and he has had sole responsibility for the raising of their daughter, who lived with him into her late twenties.
âHavenât you been to visit her?â I asked.
âYes, twice. Sheâs pregnant, as a matter of fact. But I canât just sit around their apartment and watch television. They think I should retire early and move up there, but I donât know. I would feel a burden to them.â
âYou should get married again. Find a young wife to entertain you.â
Dalakis laughed and sat down on the sofa. The leather made a squeaking noise. âI havenât noticed you getting married, and youâve been a widower for twenty years.â
âYes, but there are women I see.â
âTo tell the truth, I still miss my wife.â
âGood grief, Carl, youâre supposed to get over that.â
âBelieve me, Iâve had all sorts of advice, but it doesnât seem to work.â
âDo you know anything about her?â I asked.
âNot much. Sheâs living in another city. I went there years ago. I knew she was living with a man and I was going to confront him. I donât know what I intended to say, just âHey youâ or something like that. I saw her on the street wheeling a baby carriage.â
âWas it her child?â
Dalakis sat with his arms crossed and his hands tucked under the lapels of his brown suitcoat as he stared at the fireplace. âI assume so. That hardly mattered. What struck me was how happy she looked. You remember she had that bright blond hair? Her whole face shone. She didnât see me and I did nothing to attract her attention. I watched for a while, then went away. I havenât seen her since, although I believe my daughter has written her. Perhaps theyâll get to be friends.â
Dalakis has always been a sentimental fellow and I was afraid he might shed a tear or two. It is hard to reconcile his strong feelings with his unprepossessing appearance. His ears, for instance, resemble large pieces of grapefruit rind fastened to the side of his head. Only the handsome or beautiful can afford feelings which are inherently foolish. But he is a good man, a good man,