idiot. Brandon wasnât a stranger to a couple of beers. The police said it was the drinking that probably caused the accident, but Officer Daniels said you mentioned something about Brandonâs phone? What can you tell me, sweetheart? I feel like thereâs something you arenât saying. Please, Josh. I just want to know everything that happened that day.â
The television was on mute. I stared at ESPN for a minute. Mrs. Fitzsimmons was just sitting there on the edge of my dadâs old recliner. My mom had given her a glass of sweet tea that she held in her lap but she didnât drink it. She just sort of clutched it with her hands.
âWell, I meanâ¦â I started. My heart was pounding real hard.
âI know you donât want to make trouble, but I feel like thereâs got to be another explanation than he just had a few beers,â Mrs. Fitzsimmons said. She put the glass down on the coffee table and reached out for my hands. They were cold and clammy. Maybe from holding the sweet tea. Maybe just because they were. And I thought about all the times Iâd been over to Brandonâs house since Iâd been a kid. The millions of times. And how Mrs. Fitzsimmons was always so nice to me and everything, almost like another mom.
And I felt my mouth moving and words just coming out, and all of a sudden I was telling her about Aliceâs texts.
âAlice Franklin?â Mrs. Fitzsimmons asked, her forehead wrinkling up.
I nodded. I mean, it was kind of embarrassing because she was Brandonâs mom, but Iâm sure even Mrs. Fitzsimmons had heard the rumors about Alice and Brandon and what had happened at Elaineâs party at the end of the summer. Everyone had been talking about Alice since then. Even the grownups.
So I told her how when weâd been on the road, Alice had been sending Brandon all these texts and she wouldnât stop.
âTexts? What do you mean texts?â Mrs. Fitzsimmons said. âWhat would she be texting him about?â I looked at the television screen and I looked at the glass of sweet tea on the coffee table. But I couldnât look at Mrs. Fitzsimmons.
âUh, Iâm sorry, but this is sort of awkward,â I said.
âNo, itâs okay, Josh. The texts, were they, like, harassing?â
âThey were, like, uh, sexual stuff,â I said. âLike stuff about that party and, uh, stuff she wanted to do to Brandon or whatever.â
âHow many times did she text him while he was trying to drive?â Mrs. Fitzsimmons asked. âLots. I mean, I lost count. They were popping up every second or so.â
Mrs. Fitzsimmons nodded and I guess you could say she looked upset, but her face relaxed a little, like maybe there was a part of her that was also relieved. She finally took a sip of her tea.
âSo you could say she was distracting him with her texts?â Mrs. Fitzsimmons asked.
âYeah,â I answered. âYou could say he was distracted.â
âThank you, Josh. Thank you for telling me that. I know it wasnât easy.â
I nodded, and I was glad when she switched the topic to Brandonâs funeral and how touched she was that so many people came out for it and how happy Brandon would have been about that. We sat there for a little bit longer, just talking about Brandon and how much we both missed him, and Mrs. Fitzsimmons had to dab at her eyes a little with her napkin and stop every so often so she didnât start crying really hard. When she decided to leave, she hugged me, but not too tight on account of my shoulder.
âJosh, sweetie, I just want you to know youâre welcome at our house anytime,â she said. âAnytime, honey. I donât want to lose touch with you. I hope you know that.â
I nodded again, wishing she would just go home. I felt bad about feeling that way, but I just wanted to be by myself.
On her way out, she stopped in the kitchen to talk to my