finished talking to the police? Did you go home?â
âYes.â
âGo on from there.â
âI donât understand.â
He leans forward again, over the back of the chair. âTell me what happened after you killed my brother. I want to know how it changed your life. How it changed you. â
âWhy would you want to know that?â
âThe only thing you should care about is telling the truth.â To emphasize this, he puts the garden shears back in place, once again embracing my little finger. âNow keep going.â
I donât know what more this guy wants. I told him what I told the detective. What more is there? Is there something he knows? Something heâs not telling me? Is he waiting to see if Iâll trip up, give him an excuse to cut me?
âYou were finished with the cop, and you went homeâ¦â he urges.
All I know is Iâve still got all my fingers. Iâm still alive. And people have got to be looking for me, donât they? If I keep stalling, maybe I can allow time for them to find me.
I take a shaky breath.
4
Then
We donât leave the station till six thirty in the morning. The first few miles home, no one says anything. I glance in the rearview mirror. Devon has his head down. I canât see his face. Finally, Mom says that Devon and I are not going to school today and suggests the three of us stay in a hotel for the day instead of going home. Get some rest, maybe go somewhere fun. She can call in at the diner. We can go home tomorrow.
âIâve got a game tonight,â Devon says in a quiet voice.
âWell, Iâm sure one gameââ
âNo way youâre gonna miss your game, buddy,â I assure him. I look at Mom. She frowns at me then glances away.
A few more miles of silence pass before Devon mumbles, âI donât want to go to a hotel.â
âThatâs fine,â Mom says after a moment. âWeâll go home. But no school. We need sleep. You especially, Devon.â
As it turns out, he can barely keep his eyes open as we pull in the driveway. I walk him into the house and right up to his room. âDonât forget to wake me in time for the game,â he mumbles as he settles in, still wearing the clothes heâd changed into before going to the police station.
âYou got it.â I sit with him for a moment, rubbing his back as he closes his eyes. Not two minutes later, he begins to snore. Looking at the two of us, you might not think we were brothers. Heâs blond and Iâm dark haired. And even though heâs only ten, he seems broader and stronger than me, with my skinny frame. Another year or two at most and heâll be taller than Iâll ever be.
I hear the phone ringing from the extension in Momâs room as I stand up. As I come out of Devonâs room, Mom steps into the hallway, phone in hand. âItâs for you,â she says, handing it to me before heading downstairs.
Itâs Terry, calling from school. Terry lives a couple houses down the street from us; weâve been best friends since he moved into the neighborhood when we were eight. He has a younger brother as well. Brady and Devon play together on the same Little League team.
Because heâs in band, Terry gets to school earlier than I do. I hear the sound of kids talking in the background, somebody blowing a trumpet. âChris, are you all right?â he asks. âI saw the cop cars last night. I wanted to come over, but Mom wouldnât let me.â
âIâm okay,â I mumble.
âKids are talking stupid here. Guys are saying you shot some dude. Thatâs crazy, right?â
I hesitate, mumble something like, âSomebody broke inâ¦â
âWhat? You mean itâs true? Jesus, Chrisâ¦â A pause. âAre you coming in late today?â
âNo. We just got back from the police station a little while ago. We need to