apartment. The old lady had given her a dry T-shirt and sweater that smelled of her husbandâs hair oil, even though heâd been dead for over five years.
âI wish we had someone else nearby,â Maria said. âSomeone around all the time. Like real family.â
âIâm sorry. Iâm all youâve got,â Celeste said.
âBut what if something really does happen?â Maria had tried not to ask that, but her mother had asked it first.
Celeste hugged Maria though she was sopping wet. Maria couldnât help it: she suddenly started to cry. She cried great big racking sobs. She sobbed until her stomach hurt and the bathwater cooled. Her mom hugged her and waited. When she quieted, Celeste said, â Quâest-ce que câest? Tell me the truth.â
âEven when everything is okay,â Maria said, âI hate it here. I hate this building, those girls, and my school.â She hadnât realized it till she said it, but once she had, she knew it to be true. âAnd I never see you! Youâre never here! Iâm always alone!â
âI know.â Celesteâs voice sounded tight. âIâm sorry.â
âItâs justâ¦â Maria didnât want to upset her mother any more than she already had. âDo you remember that day we went to the beach? I loved that. Why canât we do that kind of thing more?â
Celeste stopped stroking Mariaâs wet hair. âItâs not always so easy to find the time.â
Maria worried sheâd gone too far.
âIâm okay now, Mama. I was just upset. And it wonât happen again. Iâm usually more careful. I just messed up.â
Celeste stared at her for a long time, as if she were thinking about something important.
âYou didnât mess up,â Celeste finally said. âI messed up. You shouldnât have to be careful.â
âItâs not your fault.â
âBut it is.â Celeste looked grim and determined. âIâm the adult.â
âBut what can you do about it?â Maria said.
âI donât know, chérie ,â Celeste said. âBut Iâll think of something.â
Celeste didnât make Maria return to school the next day. And anyway, Maria didnât want to go back to school and face the Bad Barbies. She was pretty sure theyâd be looking for revenge.
So Maria sat at the kitchen table, doing the schoolwork she was missing. Principal Toussainte had at least that much mercyâafter Mariaâs mother called him to explain, he agreed to let Maria finish out the year at home.
Mostly, Maria spent her days listening. She listened for the Barbies coming back from school, roaming around the building, their hooting laughter, their mothersâ hollers and slammed doors and stomped feet. She was scared all the time, though she pretended to be okay for her motherâs sake.
But Celeste knew she wasnât okay. She knew, because she was watching her daughter closely. The day after the attack she quit both her jobs. So now she didnât go to work and she didnât leave Maria alone in the apartment except to go shopping for necessities.
Celeste spent her days on their ancient computer and on the phone, and her nights sorting and packing and making more phone calls. On the sixth day, Maria woke to an empty apartment. Everything was gone: to the curb as trash, to the building superintendent for donation, or stuffed into four large duffel bags.
â Fais vite , chérie! Our taxi is coming!â Celeste hovered in the bathroom door. âWash your teeth quickly!â
â Brush your teeth, Mama.â
âYou should brush your hair, too, but we donât have time.â Celeste snatched the toothbrush, still wet, from Mariaâs hand and shoved it in her purse. âHelp with the bags.â
Celeste locked up the apartment and slipped the keys under the floor mat. The Bad Barbies were
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