decision. I hate to rush you, but weâll need to do some placement tests and evaluate you so we can design the best possible curriculum. Freshman orientation starts in a week, and weâll need to get some of this paperwork processed before then.â
I swallowed hard.
At that moment, all I could think of were those cartoons where Goofy gets stuck in front of a snowball rolling down a hill, and the snowball hits him, and heâs smushed into the side of it, and you can see him spread-eagled on the snowball as it keeps rolling down the hill.
Because thatâs exactly what I felt like.
ABOUT A half hour later, Mr. Judan flashed his ultrawhite teeth at Grandma and me one last time before he ushered Cam into a black Mercedes-Benz. They roared away the second the doors closed.
As soon as they disappeared from view, Grandma rounded on me and shook a gnarled, arthritic finger in my direction. âWhat are you thinking? You donât want to go to Delcroix? Do you have any idea how important that school is? What an honor it is to be chosen to attend? What possible reason could you have for not wanting to go? The money wonât be a problem because theyâre going to pay for everything. And donât give me that story about missing your friends and looking forward to high school. Last week you were telling me that you wished summer would go on forever. And whatâs this nonsense about soccer? You said youâd never make the varsity team at Danville High.â
Nice move, Dancia. Tell Grandma everything, why donât you.
Problem was, Grandma was one hundred percent right. I loved soccer but didnât have the skills to make the varsity team. And I didnât have friends, or classes, or anything to look forward to. Itâs a sign of just how depressed I was about the whole thing that I had confided all this to Grandma.
But while Danville High sounded depressing, Delcroix sounded terrifying. How could I blend in there? Being invisible and staying unattached were the only ways I knew to avoid triggering my power. The more emotionally attached I got to someone, the more likely I was to use my power to protect them. I had stopped making friends in the sixth grade after my best friend, Aileen, got teased by a bully and I dropped a tree branch on his head.
He went to the hospital. Twenty stitches and a concussion.
While staying unattached kept me from acting on behalf of someone else, being invisible kept me from using my power to defend myself. I made sure I didnât fit into any of the school cliques so I wouldnât develop enemies. I wasnât too smart, too pretty, too nerdy, or too preppy. I was just Dancia Lewis, the girl who everyone recognized but no one knew.
The trick to this was the Dancia two-step, which Iâd developed over the years and found to work in most social situations. Step one, act bored and impatient, like youâre waiting for someone. This tends to keep people from approaching, but also makes you look reasonably cool. Step two, if they do approach, ask them questions about themselves. People love to answer questions like that. You can find an excuse to slip away later, and theyâll have a pleasant memory of talking to you, but no idea who you are. Step two was dangerous because sometimes I would forget I wasnât supposed to be making friends, and end up in a real conversation. But Iâd remember later, and the next time I saw the person, Iâd start again with step one.
What if the two-step didnât work at Delcroix? What if I couldnât blend in there? Would I start dropping tree branches on everyone? How many people could I send to the hospital before someone started to wonder?
âYou heard them talking about that pledge,â I said, trying to sound pitiful. At this point, sympathy was my only hope. âItâs weird, right? I mean, how could you pledge never to do anything that wasnât good, or wasnât going to
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