slightly and I sat close to her, every so often turning and looking at her in the fire light. Her face looked troubled even in sleep and I worried what the future held for us.
I awoke with a start wondering where I was but quickly remembered. I turned to find you in the gloomy light created by the fire embers but I couldn’t see you in the soft glow.
“Sarah?” I asked but got no reply.
“Sarah” I said louder.
Still there was no reply. Where could you have gone to? I got up and searched around.
“Sarah” I said louder thinking there was no one else here but us anyway.
“Sawney” her reply came from one of the unexplored cave entrances along the wall. I couldn’t see her but I could hear her footsteps coming closer.
“Where did you go?” I asked.
“I had to pee.”
“Oh” I said feeling my face heat up and not knowing what else to say.
“I’m hungry.” She added.
“Yeh, me too, I had made us some sandwiches for earlier that I still have, they’ll be a little soggy but they should still be okay.”
I went to my bag and quickly found the sandwiches before returning to her. She had sat next to the fire that was barely lit and I wondered if she was cold or just trying to get some light. There was no real way to tell what time it was in the cave but I could still hear the sound of the waves washing in and out of the cave mouth so I knew the tide was still high meaning it was night time.
I passed her a sandwich and sat across from her and got the fire burning again. There was firewood everywhere in the cave. It must have been debris washed into the cave a long time ago when the tides were higher because it was all bone dry and I didn’t think the waves came up into the cavern these days but I didn’t know for sure. It was one of my concerns but I doubted it was likely to happen.
“I haven’t had jam since my parents were alive” Sarah said.
“Why did you end up living with your aunt and uncle?” I asked.
“My mum and dad were murdered coming back from Edinburgh. The highwaymen cut both their throats to steal the little belongings they had. I had already been staying with my aunt and uncle while my parents were away. They were always nice to me before my parents died.”
I didn’t know whether to continue asking questions while Sarah was talking or if that was enough for today but then she continued.
“My uncle, he did things to me.”
Sarah had said enough with that one statement. I had already suspected that’s what had happened but I think she just wanted to say it aloud. To justify her actions that morning and why we were here.
“Thankyou” she said quietly.
“For what?” I asked her.
“For coming with me, I don’t have any friends and I didn’t want to go by myself. I think being with you over the last two days somehow made up my mind of what I had to do but I hoped you would come with me.”
“But I barely said ten words to you” I added thinking how could I possibly have influenced your decision and wondering if this meant I was in someway guilty of your aunt and uncles death before deciding I wouldn’t much care if I was.
“I know you didn’t but there’s something between us. Can’t you feel it?”
I knew exactly what she meant but was surprised to hear the words coming out of her mouth. I still didn’t really know what this meant for us but knowing that she had felt something too made my heart swell.
“Yes.” Was all I could think to reply, there was so much I’d have liked to have said but I couldn’t find the words.
The fire was burning brighter now and I was sure I had seen her do one of those little almost smiles, where it just touches the edge of her lips but she said no more. She crawled over to my side, gave me the softest kiss on the cheek and lay down with her head on my lap. I could still feel that kiss lingering on my cheek long