dream,â Carol said quietly, gazing down at her dessert plate. âI should have known itâit would never come true. My Aunt Jessie says going to college is nonsense. She says I should meet a nice young man and get married as soon as possible. Uncle Edgar thinks I should go to work at his drugstore immediately. Good clerks are hard to come by. Iâve helped out there several times.â
âYou donât want to get married?â he asked.
âIâI want to do something with my life,â she said, and there was a passionate tremor in her voice. âI want to be somebody, accomplish things. Most peopleâmost people exist. I want to live.â
Norman Philips heard that passionate tremor in her voice, that conviction found only in the very young before life has stripped away so many illusions. It saddened him, for those full of passion and conviction were invariably hurt by life, and he didnât want this girl to be hurt. She was so very beautiful, so radiant, and there was a touching vulnerability as well. How long would that last out in the cold, cruel world? Trapped in a loveless marriage all these years, blessed with all the material comforts and plagued with a sense of time gone by, opportunities lost, potentials unfulfilled, he longed to warm himself at the altar of her youth, longed for the temporary reassurance a girl like this could give, but his decision was already made. Life might hurt her, but he didnât intend to.
âFinished?â he inquired.
Carol nodded. He signaled the waiter and paid the bill and helped her to her feet. âSome Enchanted Eveningâ was playing on the jukebox now. Norman Philips felt a tightness at the back of his throat. Fingers curled about her elbow, he led the girl toward the door. She was just a little unsteady on her stockinged feet. How easy it would be. How easy. There had been so many young women in his lifeâsmooth, sleek, pretty creatures who accepted his expensive presents with greedy eyes and hinted for more while dispensing their favorsâbut there had never been one like this, one so innocent, so young. His manner became brusque as they stepped outside. The air was almost chilly. He was grateful for that. It helped.
âIâll take you home now,â he said, guiding her toward the car.
âNo,â she said.
âWhat do you meanââNoâ?â
âI told you earlier. I canât go home.â
âThatâs nonsense. Your aunt and uncleââ
âI humiliated them today. Aunt Jessie will never live it down. Uncle Edgar couldnât care less what I do. Theyâtheyâll be glad to be rid of me at last.â
âYouâre drunk, Carol.â
âNo. I may have been. Iâm not now.â
âWhat will you do?â
âIâIâll go to Wichita and get a job. Iâll work at the Dairy Queen. I worked at the Dairy Queen in Ellsworth last summer. Iâsomehow Iâll earn some money andâand if I canât go to Claymore Iâll go to Kansas State, wait on tables, do anything I have to do toâto escape.â
âAnd tonight?â he asked.
âIâll go home with you. You said your wife is in Europe.â
âShe is, butââ
Carol steadied herself against the side of the car and looked up at him with imploring eyes.
âYou care,â she said, and that tremor was in her voice again. âI sense that. Youâyou actually care what happens to me. Youâre kind. Youâre compassionate. I sense that, too. Itâitâs been so long since anyone actually cared. Please let me go with you. I wonât be any trouble, I promise.â
âYou donât know what youâre doing, Carol.â
âI think so. I think I do.â
Philips hesitated, his throat so tight he could hardly speak. The girl looked up at him, fragile, lovely, hair spilling over her shoulders in the moonlight. Music