ensconced in her splendid mansion, still entertaining, still running her salon. Only now she employed women younger than herself to provide the services she once had performed.
âBut I donât want you in Paris,â my mother argued. âOf all places, Opaline, Paris is the most dangerous for you to be on your own and . . .â
The rest of her sentence was swallowed by a burst of crackling. In 1905, weâd been one of the first families to have a telephone. A decade later almost all businesses and half the households in France had one, but transmission could still be spotty.
âWhat did you say?â I asked.
âItâs too dangerous for you in Paris.â
I didnât ask what she meant, assuming she referred to how often the Germans were bombarding Paris. But now I know she wasnât thinking of the war at all but rather of my untrained talents and the temptations and dangers awaiting me in the city where sheâd faced her own demons.
I didnât listen to her entreaties. No, out of a combination of guilt over Timurâs death and patriotism, my mind was set. I was committed to living in Paris and working for the war effort. Only cowards went to America.
Iâd known I couldnât drive ambulances like other girls; I was disastrous behind the wheel. And from having three younger siblings, I knew nursing wasnât a possibilityâI couldnât abide the sight of blood whenever Delphine, Sebastian, or Jadine got a cut.
Two months after Timur died, his mother, Anna Orloff, who had been like an aunt to me since Iâd turned thirteen, wrote to say that, like so many French businesses, her husbandâs jewelry shop had lost most of its jewelers to the army. With her stepson, Grigori, and her youngest son, Leo, fighting for France, she and Monsieur needed help in the shop.
Later, Anna told me sheâd sensed I needed to be with her in Paris. She had always known things about me no one else had. Like my mother, Anna was involved in the occult, one reason she had been attracted to my motherâs artwork in the first place. For that alone, I should have eschewed her interest in me. After all, my motherâs use of magick to cure or cause ills, attract or repel people, as well as read minds and sometimes change them, still disturbed me. Too often Iâd seen her blur the line between dark and light,pure and corrupt, with ease and without regret. That her choices disturbed me angered her.
Between her paintings, which took her away from my brother and sisters and me, and her involvement with the dark arts, Iâd developed two minds about living in the occult world my mother inhabited with such ease.
Yet I was drawn to Anna for her warmth and sensitive natureâso different from my motherâs elaborate and eccentric one. Because Iâd seen Anna be so patient with her sonsâ and my siblingsâ fears, I thought sheâd be just as patient with mine. I imagined she could be the lamp to shine a light on the darkness Iâd inherited and teach me control so I wouldnât accidentally traverse the lines my mother crossed so boldly.
Undaunted, Iâd fled from the dock in Cherbourg to Paris, and for more than three years Iâd been ensconced in Orloffâs gem of a store, learning from a master jeweler.
To teach me his craft, Monsieur had me work on a variety of pieces, but my main job involved soldering thin bars of gold or silver to create cages that would guard the glass on soldiersâ watch faces.
To some, what I did might have seemed a paltry effort, but in the field, at the front, men didnât have the luxury of stopping to pull out a pocket watch, open it, and study the hour or the minute. They needed immediate information and had to wear watches on their wrists. And war isnât kind to wristwatches. A sliver of shrapnel can crack the crystal. A whack on a rock as you crawl through a dugout can shatter the face.