over on a school night, but I thought it might be a good idea after what we had been through the night before. I felt she needed to be with her best friend, even if it was a school night – just this once.
Gemma came over to pick up her stuff and made a big fuss over Lilly. She then hugged me really tightly, and held my face in her hands and told me she loved me. When I told her I loved her, too, she grabbed me, this time holding my face more forcefully. ‘No, Mum, you need to listen to me. I REALLY love you.’ ‘Yes, yes,’ I said, ‘I know you do. Now get out of here and try not to burn Louise’s house down!’
I gave her some dinner money for tomorrow and off she went.
The next day she was gone.
CHAPTER 5
âWE KNOW WHO SHEâS WITH â¦â
O n Friday, 21 September 2012, less than 24 hours since I had packed Gemma off to Louiseâs for a sleepover, my whole world was turned upside down. And to think, I had started the day with nothing more to worry about than what kind of furniture we wanted to buy from Argos â¦
Detective Constable Pawson and the school police officer came into the sitting room, where the family had gathered waiting for news. Our minds had been racing, trying to make sense of things and wondering what had happened to Gemma. No one wanted to admit their fears.
When DC Pawson then said, âWe know who sheâs withâ, I was chilled to the core.
The school police officer recapped the information that they had. Following DC Pawsonâs visit to us earlier in the week, he had been liaising with the school. The moment Gemma wentmissing, he requested that a number of cross-checks be made on Forrest.
DC Pawsonâs suspicions about Forrest had proved to be correct: he and Gemma were together.
âWe have CCTV footage of Jeremy Forrest and Gemma boarding a ferry at 9.20pm last night from Dover to Calais. We tracked his car number plate from Eastbourne to the ferry crossing.â
I jumped up, screamed âNooooo,â and ran out of the room. Once again I found myself thinking, âIf Iâm not there, itâs not happening.â It canât be happening. I wanted to run, but I had nowhere to run to. My coping mechanism was to deny that my darling daughter could have been taken by this man. Things like this didnât happen to people like us.
Back in the sitting room with Paul, Max, Mum and Charlotte there was a whirlwind of questions. What was being done? When would they arrest him? When would Gemma be back? Did Gemma looked scared on the CCTV footage? Had he kidnapped her? Could he have molested her? Everyone wanted to speak; they wanted answers.
For me, it was just a blur. I went to the other side of the room trying to escape what I had just heard. Surely it is a mistake, I kept telling myself. Surely she will be home in a minute.
DC Pawson explained to us that Forrest had phoned in sick the day before. When the police report about Gemma going missing came through, he had called Forrestâs home and spoken to his wife, who said he was away on a course in London. DC Pawson put two and two together â the rumours, the pictures, the pair of them going missing from school â and then it was just a matter of tracking down Forrestâs car number plate.
By then, though, Forrest and Gemma had got a 15-hour head start on the police and were already over the border in France. The police said they were in contact with P&O Ferries and that officers were going to Dover to collect the CCTV images.
There was one glimmer of hope that we could all cling on to â Forrest had bought return tickets and they were due back in Dover on the 10pm ferry on Sunday night.
I tried to persuade myself that Gemma might ring me; after all, she would know how upset I would be that she had disappeared. I told myself maybe, just maybe, it was totally innocent, but deep down I knew I was kidding myself.
Paul was great and immediately took charge of the kids,