canât do anything for it.â
She hastened from the bed to a chest of drawers and returned with a horseshoe magnet in her hand. Pulling back the sheets, she held it to his foot. âDoes it help?â
âA bit,â he lied.
Unfamiliar names ran through his mind. Trounce. Honesty. Lawless. Raghavendra. Krishnamurthy. Bhatti. Who were they? And Mrs. Angell? Heâd never had a housekeeper!
âDo you remember Stoker?â he asked.
âThe theatre man? Irvingâs manager? Yes, of course I do. Weâve dined with him on a number of occasions.â
âI have the unaccountable belief that I knew him as a child.â
âHe never mentioned it. Surely he would have. And youâve never spoken of it before. I think your mind is playing tricks.â
âPerhaps it is. I imagine I knew Wilde, too.â
âOscar? Great heavens above! I sincerely hope not!â
âWhat is wrong with me, Isabel? I feel oddly divided, as though thereâs more than one of me.â
âI fear youâre having one of your old fevers. They always had that symptom. Remember when you returned from Africa stricken with malaria? For weeks you were convinced that you were two people in one body, forever at war with yourself. You used toââ
Her voice faded away. Oblivion enveloped him. From it, a vision emerged. He was in a featureless desert, squatting beside a tent, fascinated by a scarab beetle pushing a ball of camel dung alongside the fringe of the canvas. âThe sun across the heavens,â he murmured. âDay and night. Light and dark. Presence and absence. Life and death. One and zero.â
When he was next aware, it was half past three and Isabel was distraught.
âI couldnât rouse you. You were gasping for breath.â
He told another falsehood in order to comfort her. âJust a deep sleep. I was dreaming. I saw the little flat weâll buy in London, and it had quite a nice large room in it.â
âThen weâll make that your study,â she replied. âYou can hang your swords on its wall and put yourââ
She vanished into blazing whiteness as his chest tightened viciously. A thousand tortures. Agony beyond comprehension. He couldnât even scream.
There eventually came further cognisance of time passed. Grenfell Bakerâs voice sounded from afar. âTry to keep your respiration steady, Sir Richard. Here, drink this. It will offer some relief.â
Swallow. Bad taste. Pain.
âYour wife has gone for the priest.â
Priest? Priest? Bismillah! Am I dying? Help me! Save me!
He squeezed his eyes shut and when he opened them again she was there, weeping. Knives twisted between his ribs. It was unendurable. He reached for her, weakly clawing at her arm. âChloroform! Ether! Or Iâm a dead man!â
âThe doctor says it will kill you!â she wailed. âHeâs doing all he knows!â
Life. Death.
One. Zero.
Music. An intricate rhythm. Curious melodies. Peculiar harmonies. The sound gripped him and dragged him through a whiteness that was everything and nothing. He fragmented. Every decision heâd ever made unravelled. All his successes and failures frayed away. He lost cohesion until nothing of him remained.
Zero. Zero. Zero.
Gathering weight.
The pressure of her arms beneath him.
No, not her arms. The ground.
Burton opened his eyes and saw a flickering orange light. Flames reflected on a canvas roof. He was in a tent.
He sat up.
El Balyuz, the chief abban, burst in. âThey are attacking!â He handed Burton a revolver. âYour gun, Effendi!â
What is this? What is happening?
Pushing back his bed sheets, moving like an automaton, with no control over himself, Burton stood, put the pistol on the map table, and pulled on his trousers. Astonishingly, his body was that of a young man. He took up the gun again, looked over to Lieutenant George Herne, and grinned. Words