crying openly now, tracks of tears glinting on his face. Kelsea felt her own eyes wanting to water again, but she took the reins and turned the horse toward Carroll. âWe can go now, Captain.â
âAt your command, Lady.â
He shook the reins and started down the path. âAll of you, in kite, square around the Queen,â he called back over his shoulder. âWe ride until sunset.â
Queen . There was the word again. Kelsea tried to think of herself as a queen and simply couldnât. She set her pace to match the guardsâ, resolutely not looking back. She turned around only once, just before they rounded the bend, and found Barty and Carlin still standing in the cottage doorway, watching her go, like an old woodsman couple in some tale long forgotten. Then the trees hid them from view.
Kelseaâs mare was apparently a sturdy one, for she took the uneven terrain surefootedly. Bartyâs stallion had always had problems in the woods; Barty said that his horse was an aristocrat, that anything less than an open straightaway was beneath him. But even on the stallion, Kelsea had never ventured more than a few miles from the cottage. Those were Carlinâs orders. Whenever Kelsea spoke longingly of the things she knew were out there in the wider world, Carlin would impress upon her the necessity of secrecy, the importance of the queenship she would inherit. Carlin had no patience with Kelseaâs fear of failure. Carlin didnât want to hear about doubts. Kelseaâs job was to learn, to be content without other children, other people, without the wider world.
Once, when she was thirteen, Kelsea had ridden Bartyâs stallion into the woods as usual and gotten lost, finding herself in unfamiliar forest. She didnât know the trees or the two streams sheâd passed. Sheâd ended up riding in circles, and was about to give up and cry when she looked toward the horizon and saw smoke from a chimney, some hundred feet away.
Moving closer, she found a cottage, poorer than Bartyâs and Carlinâs, made of wood instead of stone. In front of the cottage had been two little boys, a few years younger than Kelsea, playing a make-believe game of swords, and she had watched them for a very long time, sensing something sheâd never considered before: an entirely different upbringing from her own. Until that moment, she had somehow thought that all children had the same life. The boysâ clothes were ragged, but they both wore comfortable-looking shirts with short sleeves that ended at the bicep. Kelsea could only wear high-necked shirts with tight, long sleeves, so that no chance passersby would ever get a look at her arm or the necklace she wasnât allowed to remove. She listened to the two boysâ chatter and found that they could barely speak proper Tear; no one had sat them down every morning and drilled them on grammar. It was the middle of the afternoon, but they werenât in school.
âYouâs Mort, Emmett. Iâs Tear!â the older boy proclaimed proudly.
âIâs not Mort! Mortâs short!â the littler one shouted. âMum said you supposed to make me Tear sometime!â
âFine. Youâs Tear, but Iâs using magic!â
After watching the two boys for a while, Kelsea marked the real difference, the one that commanded her attention: these children had each other. She was only fifty yards away, but the companionship between the two boys made her feel as distant as the moon. The distance was only compounded when their mother, a round woman with none of Carlinâs stately grace, came outside to gather them up for dinner.
âEw! Martin! Come wash up!â
âNo!â the little one replied. âWe ainât done.â
Picking up a stick from the bundle on the ground, the mother jumped into the middle of their game, battling them both while the boys giggled and shrieked. Finally, the mother pulled each