a solution.â
âI was studyingâ¦â Alisa begged, her hand grabbing for her precious book, but he held it too high. âPlease, I need my book.â
âFor what?â
âI told youâI am studying.â
âTourism.â He frowned at the title. âYou have big dreams! Is that why you do not fit in?â As he handed the book back to her he registered her grimace. âI have seen the way the other staff talk to you, that you choose to go to your room rather thanââ He gave a small shrug. âYou think you are too good for them?â
âNo, but that is how they think I feel.â Alisa admitted. âThey say I should be happy with my lot, honored to work at the palace.â
âYou think it is beneath you?â
âOf course not.â She began brushing the floor with her foot. âI am grateful for the work, but yesâ¦one day I hope for better. Please, Benito,â Alisa screwed her eyes closed, could scarcely believe the mess she had made of things. She couldnât bear the thought of facing Alberto in the morningâ¦and it was that thought alone that gave the nerve to continue. âYour offer for Alberto is incredibly generousââ
âI will not be patronized by a maid.â Benito sneered. âHave the guts to finish what you started. Tell me what it is that I do not understand.â
âA-Alberto needs the work,â she stammered, her eyes glassy with tears as she told him the truth. âIf he has time off, he will not be paid and now, more than ever, he needs the money.â
âSurely he should want to be with his wife.â
âWant and need are two different things.â Somehow her words hit, only not the mark sheâd intended. The vast airy room was suddenly stifling and warm⦠And even when she remembered her place, even when she added a respectful âSirâ to the end of her sentence, it did nothing to release the sudden tension.
âSurely they mean the same.â His voice was low, the anger gone from it, but it was just as dangerous. The lateness of the hour, the fact it was just the two of them in the villa trickled into her consciousness as surely as it did into his. âCome on. You are the clever one who is studying. Tell meâwhat is the difference?â
âI donât know.â Alisa moistened her dry lips, her mind whirring as she attempted to answer him. âWant isâ¦desire, cravingâ¦â
âAnd need?â
âNeed isâ¦â She could feel her cheeks flaming under his scrutiny. She attempted to hold his unwavering gaze, but was sideswiped by untoward thoughts as she struggled to keep control,
âGo on.â
âNeed is about obligation, about doing what is necessary.â
There was an interminable silence, her heart hammering so loudly surely he must hear it. Her fateâAlbertoâs fateâwas held solely in his manicured hands.
âYou can cover his shortfall? If Alberto is not here, you can make up his duties without my having to inform the palace.â
âOf course,â Alisa breathed, wondering if she dared to tell him now about Marietta, that she had to dash home each evening to kiss her and give Marietta her medications, but Alberto needed this so much that Alisa chose not to.
âWhen I am out, when the other staff are goneââ her breath was hot in her lungs as she awaited his demands ââyou can use the study, the computer.â The tiny gasp that escaped from her lips was unavoidable. The precious money, the time she would save typing up her work rather than laboriously handwriting her assignments or using the library computer, was way beyond anything she could have expected. And yet there was a strange thud of disappointment, too, in that tiny slice of time her mind had danced dangerously.
âThank you.â How paltry that sounded. âReally, thank you.â
âYou
Elizabeth Ashby, T. Sue VerSteeg