trolleys.
âChrist, theyâre corpses. There must be sixty-odd in that lot.â
âAre they what I think they are?â I ask.
âYep.â
âJesus.â
âPlenty more where they came from.â
âFuck,â is all I can say.
âTO Nui Dat by truck is approximately thirty minutesâ ride. The highway you will be travelling on has been under Viet Cong control for the last twelve years. I want one man in each truck to act as shotgun. If we have a contact we will go into a standard vehicle ambush drill. Shotguns, keep your eyes open and donât kill any fucking villagers. On the way,â words of wisdom from the squadron sergeant major.
âAny questions?â
âSir, how do we know the difference between villagers and Charlies?â
âWhen they blow yer stupid head off, does that answer your question?â
âYessir.â
We all laughedâthe sergeant major laughed too.
I am almost disappointed that no one shoots at us. Shit it feels good, the local nogs are as scared as all Christ of us.
âDâja see the looks on their faces?â
âReally make you feel welcome, donât they.â
Remember as soon as you got thereârain. Remember how you said that youâd never seen rain like it but you got used to it after a couple of days and anyway it was good to wash in; the small waterfalls it made when it spilled down from the roof of the supply tent, much better than that chlorinated catsâ piss that the sappers used to get from the well.
There were times when it was good to lie in your own little sandbagged and plastic covered world. In the afternoons, when it rainedâit always rained on time.
âYou could set your watch by this fucking rain,â said Harryâevery day, day after day. It became a ritual after a while, remember, as soon as it would start to rain the whole troop of sixteen men would scream in unison: âWhat could you set your watch by, Harry?â and Harry would scream back, âThis fucking rain.â
AND yes, there were the card games. The OC had strictly forbidden gambling in the lines, everyone from 2 IC down gambled. Pontoon, of course, and always in the supply tent where Black Ronnie, the quartermaster, ran the games, every night.
âPay twenty.â
âWouldnât that fuck ya; eighteen.â
âThatâs the third in a row.â
âYou wouldnât be cheatinâ your comrades in arms would you, Ronnie?â
âWho? Me? No way.â
âMy arse.â
âBuy oneâand another.â
âBust me for four bucks.â
âWhat are you on?â
âSixteen.â
âSixteen and ten is twenty six.â
âThanks, cunt.â
âYou are most welcome, my boy.â
âBets thanks, fellas.â
Every night it went on except when you were out on operations.
âAre you playing or not?â
âBuy one.â
âShuddup. Listen.â
âWhat?â
âShuddup.â
Crump, crump, crump, crumpâ¦footsteps of death. Jesus Christ, Incoming Mortars Incoming. The clash beside the tent made you stop dead. Christ, the stink. Crump, crump, crump. Cordite. Oh shit, remember how Black Ronnie crashed forward over the table and how you froze when you saw the hole in the back of his head and how he started to vomit. Shit, oh Jesus noâand when you went to grab him, the gush of blood from his mouth that hit you full in the faceâblood and vomit. âOh fuck,â you said. âRonnie,â you yelled, âOh Jesus.â Crump, crumpâremember how you could see the grey-blue brain pulse out its last few, jerky movements, and Ronnieâs eyes. One more cough, more blood. Remember how you swore that he wouldnât die and you knew damn well that you were holding a corpse and that you were standing like a fool holding him across the table under the arms while he spewed blood over the cards.
Carolyn McCray, Elena Gray