a drug cartel. It was crazy because with all of the knowledge I had about it, I never thought about getting into the game myself. Mainly because every single one of the men my mother dated were hustlers who met sticky endings no matter how much of a boss they were. One of the worst experiences in my life happened due to the game and the life that came with it. After that, I was skeptical about that idea, and it made me worry about Ray every day. However, if it came down to it, though, I know I would be down for the ride.
âReally, Mocha, I feel you,â I said lying back on my bed. âThis shit is getting played out to me too. If I didnât think Grandma Rae would flip, I would have been gone.â
âI know. These petty-ass refund checks canât cover the kind of taste I have. Iâm tired of Ray buying all of our shit. One day, he isnât going to be here, and school isnât taking me anywhere. I need to figure out what Iâm going to do with my life. Right now, I feel as if Iâm wasting it taking tests to get a degree that I donât even want.â
âWe can get jobs,â I said but instantly took it back. I couldnât picture either of us flipping anyoneâs burgers. âNever mind.â
âRight. The working world ainât for us,â Mocha agreed, turning to face my bed.
âYeah,â I concurred.
There were a few minutes of silence before Mocha began speaking, a little more quietly that time.
âSo you havenât talked to Ray at all?â
âNo,â I told her. âI donât know whatâs been up with us lately. I used to talk to him every day.â
âYeah, you know what theyâre saying, right? About Coopa?â
I nodded my head. Coopa was the kingpin of Detroit. He usually kept his business tight. From what I heard and saw, he was a man that you didnât want to cross. He shot first and didnât ask or answer any questions. He was a good-looking man in his late thirties; light skin with small brown eyes and well respected in the game. He currently was the head of the biggest drug trafficking operation the city of Detroit had ever seen, and his team consisted of all the hustlers in Detroit. Ray was like his right-hand man, which meant that Ray was big. Lately, though, Iâd been hearing that some people wanted Coopaâs head on a stick. Something about he had been making some business deals and not holding up his end of the bargain. He thought he was untouchable, and so far, he had been. I just didnât want Ray in any mess behind Coopaâs messiness.
âWhat do you think about it?â Mocha asked me.
âI mean, what can I say? Rayâs a grown-ass man. I just hope that when Coopa goes down, Ray doesnât go with him,â I told her.
âMaybe heâs just waiting for the right time to get out,â Mocha threw out.
âNaw, Ray loves his life too much. If anything, he would just take over. Then we could finally drop out of this bitch,â I said.
âWhat does that mean?â Mocha asked.
âNothing,â I said, not really knowing what I was saying.
âSadie, are you really thinking about that?â she asked. âI thought we were just playing around with that shit.â
âThat âshitâ would be better than just sitting here wasting my life away doing nothing,â I told her.
âYou tripping; youâre trying to be on some crazy shit,â she said.
âSome C. N. Phillips-type shit,â I said glancing at my bookshelf.
âOK, Say,â Mocha said, calling me by my nickname. âThis isnât a book! This is real life! Letâs be real for a second. If we start up our own business, it would get shut down before we even took flight! Antwan told me about what Coopa did to those niggas from California. Their bodies were found in Dumpsters. Fuck with that shit if you want to, Sadie, but itâs not smart. What makes it