feeling.â
âIâm sorry. I wasnât deceiving you. For all these years Iâve been trying to deceive myself. If you want to understand, David, youâve got to know about my grandmother. Let me start with Alice.â
2
June was truly glorious that year. Everyone agreed that the season opened with a spell of lovely weather. May was warm and delightful, so different from the dismal chilly late spring of 1933. Yes, 1934 was going to be a vintage year for people who wanted to enjoy themselves. The debutantes were pretty, some outstanding. One or two, like the young beauty from Boston, Alice Homes Fry, were a gift to the society columns. There were balls and cocktail parties and luncheons every week. The Derby, Royal Ascot, Henley, Cowes; country-house parties at weekends and nothing in the world to worry about except love affairs and which invitation to accept. For the rich, that is.
But Alice Holmes Fry, who had arrived in proper style on the Queen Mary , with her mother as chaperone and a ladiesâ maid, had just enough money to last the year in England. If she failed to catch a rich husband she would have to go home to Boston and take what she could get. Americans were sought after and popular; many were very rich and the less well-endowed bachelors with expensive houses to keep up and diminishing resources circled around the little pool of heiresses like hungry crocodiles, teeth bared in ingratiating smiles. They didnât trouble Alice. The Holmes Frys were Boston aristocracy; they had a well-documented Founding Father among their ancestors, but they werenât rich. Aliceâs father had seen to that. Gambling and women had eaten away what remained of a substantial inherited fortune. When he died there was not much left beyond a modest trust which had eluded him. Alice was twenty-two.
It was her idea to go to England. Her mother was described by friends and family as a sweet woman, by which they meant she was weak with her profligate husband and too stupid to see their ruin approaching. But Alice knew better. Alice knew it wasnât weakness or stupidity. Her mother loved him. And she always spoke of him as âyour dear fatherâ, even though he had died in another womanâs bed.
Mother and daughter were so different, but they couldnât have been closer. Phoebe Holmes Fry was small and dark and inclined to plumpness. Alice, she thought proudly, was so like her father, with his bright blond hair and those amazing blue eyes. No wonder the women had run after him â it wasnât really his fault. Alice had his height and slender build, his magnetism, so that people clustered around her.
âWhy go to England, sweetheart? Youâve got some nice young men just dying to propose, but you wonât let them.â
âMother,â Alice had said, âtheyâre dull and Iâm not in love with any of them. I want someone special. Thereâs no one special here.â
At least not interested in me. Daddyâs final curtain exit hasnât helped my chances, but Iâm not going to say that. She mustnât be hurt. He hurt her enough for a whole lifetime, the bastard. If we go to England Iâll meet the sort of man I want. I know I will.
They booked into the Ritz. âBut sweetheart,â her mother had protested, âwe really canât afford to stay there!â
âWe canât afford not to,â was Aliceâs answer. âWe must do it in style, Mother, or not at all. Weâve got to rent a house, where we can entertain, and itâs got to be in the right part of the city. Weâve budgeted. Weâve got a year. Donât worry â everything will be fine, I just know it.â
âI donât know where you get all that confidence,â Phoebe said. âCertainly not from me. Maybe your dear father â¦â
Alice turned away and said, âMaybe.â She didnât want her expression to be