todayâs load.â
The mantel clockâs second hand ticked. One. Two. Three.
Then Knight broke into a grin, his entire posture shifting as he motioned me to my desk. âHave a seat, Tobiah. We do have a lot of work, but hopefully we can get through it quickly.â
With a smile, I shucked off my jacket and threw it over the back of my chair. âBefore we get started, I have a question.â
âLetâs hope I have an answer.â Knight, too, removed his jacket. Faint sweat stains marked his shirt, which I pretended not to notice.
âThis morning, I had breakfast with the Chuters.â
Knight smirked. âIâm sure that was very educational.â
âIt was interesting, certainly.â Too full of energy to sit, I paced the room. âLord Chuter mentioned a new variation of shine on the streets.â
The mantel clock ticked again, this time with true tension filling the seconds. Each click reminded me that even though he was my favorite teacher, he wasnât my friend . There would always be a barrier between us.
âSo,â Professor Knight said, âyou thought my history meant Iâd know something about this?â
The question hit me in the chest. It was fair, though. That was one of the reasons Iâd asked him and not one of my othertutors. But also: âI thought youâd know because you know something about everything. And youâre more likely to tell me the whole truth, rather than gloss over whatever is really happening.â
He gave me a long, even stare, and finally nodded. âWell, thatâs all true.â
I risked a smile.
âUnfortunately for you, I donât know much about the new variation, except that itâs worse than regular shine.â
âHow is it worse?â Regular shine was already dangerous enough. It was a mix of wraith mist and chemicals, which made users feel as tall or strong or smart as they desired. It was a wish-fulfillment drug, except that the wishes werenât really granted.
Until they were.
Some said it was overdoses that triggered the change, or after a certain amount of shine was taken, or that it was random and it could happen after one hit or one hundred, but eventually the changes became real and irreversible, and entirely grotesque. Shiners became glowmen, and glowmen were monsters.
Not that Iâd ever seen one, but Iâd heard stories.
âThe new variation is called firefly.â Knight combed his fingers through his beard. His nervous habit. âAnd the thing that makes it worse is the thing that saved my life. Regular shine, you can quit. You donât really want to. Thatâs the draw of it. But you can, if you have the determination. Firefly is another matter. Itâs more addictive; if you quit taking it, you will die.â
That thought chilled me. âThen thereâs no recovery? You quit and die, or you continue taking firefly and become a glowman.â
Knight offered a grave nod. âNot that anyone wants to quit. Thatâs what addiction is. Itâs a hundred small excuses to keep feeling the way you want to feel. For people who have no control in their lives, itâs the illusion of having control.â
Even with as little control as I had, the decision to destroy oneself with shine was unimaginable to me.
I dropped into my chair. âWho would produce such a thing? Who would condemn people to live as monsters or die for their freedom?â
âPeople who want to make money.â The professor scooped up a packet of papers from his desk. âPeople who donât care about others. People who like to set fires and burn as many others as possible.â His tone was bitter. Angry.
Understandable. He spent most of his youth mixed up with shiners, and took it himself for an entire year before a teacher at the Academy found him, recognized his brilliance, and helped him clean up. By that time, Knightâs family had disowned him,
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