delivery, water recycling, composting, or bioluminescence, so I knew I was unlikely to run into any of my old friends. The smoke came cheap and plentiful, and escape was just a few puffs away. And the place was open twenty-four seven.
I thought I had changed my appearance enough to go unnoticed, but Meera recognized me right away. Sheâd been looking for me, she said.
She slid into my booth and offered me a pull from her water pipe. I rarely smoke, finding the atmosphere calming enough on its own. Plus, I was running out of seeds.
âMy nameâs Meera,â she said. âWe should be friends.â
I hesitated, trying not to look suspicious. âWhat makes you say that?â
Ignoring the question, she held her pipe out to me. âThis is my favorite flavor. Tastes like black caps. I think youâll like it.â
Black caps . Thatâs how I knew. Itâs what Outsiders call wild blackberries and raspberries. They grow in great brambly bushes in parts of Outsider territory, and every tiny corpuscle tastes like a burst of heaven. Rhinehouse says the Sectorâs version, the ones they use in Mealpaks, have been so hybridized they hardly have any taste at all. I donât even remember eating them when I was younger.
âBlack caps. Never heard of such a thing.â I took a long drag, feeling the calm sink in, remembering how I used to love smoking with Eli, Jahnu, and Kenzie at Thermopylae. Meera leaned in, elbows on the table.
âWord on the street is we have friends in common,â she said, looking me up and down. âYou hungry?â
âStarving.â Meera flashed her siren smile, and in the haze of the blackberry smoke, I couldnât help it. I smiled back.
âI can help you with that. Letâs go to my apartment. Iâve got food to spare. We can catch up on how our mutual friends are doing.â
I was hesitant at first, reluctant to trust anyone. But after weeks with no news of Vale, no word from Chan-Yu, Soren, Osprey, Miah, or anyone else in the Resistance, Iâd finally found someone to talk to. Or rather, someone had found me. My mind foggy with hunger, loneliness, and desperation, I figured if Meera was a spy for the Sector, sheâd lead me right to Corine. I was willing to take the risk.
My trust was well-founded. Meera fed me, gave me extra clothes, replenished my disguise makeup, and now sheâs going to let me move into her apartment.
âEverything is mostly cleaned out,â Meera says, pulling a shirt up over her head to change clothes for work. âI wonât be far, and Iâll be by every few days with food.â
âI hate to kick you out of your own place,â I say, protesting for the thousandth time and trying not to stare at the scarred lines on her back. One time, I asked how she got her scar, but she just gave me a sly smile and said nothing.
âRemy, youâre not kicking me out. This place is hardly big enough for two and besides, Iâll be staying with a very close friend.â She winks.
I think of Vale, the idea of staying with him someday in a warm house, with a proper kitchen, and a real bed. If we live long enough.
âIf the meeting with Snake goes well, youâll have a better idea of where Vale is and how you can see him. Iâve got a good feeling about this.â
âI canât thank you enough. For everything.â
âIf you ever need to run, thereâs a safe house on the outskirts of Okaria the Outsiders stay at sometimes. You might know about it.â Her eyes twinkle. âItâs your grandfatherâs house.â
âKanaanâs?â I ask, wide-eyed. âOutsiders stay there?â
âOn occasion. Itâs big, empty, comfortable. What more could we ask for?â She squeezes my hand and whispers, âWeâll talk soon. Good luck.â
Itâs still darkâthe first hint of dawn is edging the horizonâwhen Meera leaves. I
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