you.â
âStop right there,â he said.
âYou are my best friend.â
âSo, Best Friend, youâve been helping poor Martin through a rough patch? Been kind of a long patch, wouldnât you say?â
âYes, as a matter of fact.â
âMaybe that should have told you something. Jesus.â He shook his head. âYou donât pay attention.â
âYouâre not the first one to tell me that.â
âBut you keep drifting along, expecting all of us to look out for you. Why are you crying?â
âHeadache,â I said.
âIâm only telling you the truth.â
âThank you.â
âI pay attention to the world thatâs in front of me, not the one I want to see.â He waited for me to respond, then said, âGive it a try sometime. No telling what youâll find out.â He left the diner without yelling. Even so, a waitress came over and rested her hand on my shoulder.
âYou need me to call anybody?â
I wiped my eyes. âWeâre friends,â I said. âWe do this all the time.â
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Once the party got started, the guests laughing and the music not yet too loud, my spirits surprised me by lifting. Dik and Alice danced like gangly angels, and I was glad Iâd resisted the frightened, last-minute impulse to call things off.
Across the room, beside the drinks table, Martin banged his hands together to laud the happy couple. At his side, peering at the crowd with interest, stood Lora, his date.
âHow nice that youâre here,â Iâd said at the door. âWhere did you and Martin meet?â
She smiled crookedly. Her hair, almost white, stuck out in feathery tufts. âThe Hot Spot. I donât usually go there. Marty says he usually doesnât either.â
âThatâs right,â I said, stopping myself from telling her that Martin invariably called the place The Wet Spot. He went there more often than he told her. âMarty,â I said.
He kissed me on the cheek. âThe place looks nice. I like the balloons. Whereâs Jeff?â
âPouring a drink.â
Martin took off across the room, and I grabbed Loraâs hand before she could follow him. âIâm very, very glad youâre here.â
Perhaps she was tipsy enough not to hear the pressure in my voice. She said, âI like parties. I go to every party I can find.â
âWe donât have them very often,â I said. âYou tell us if weâre doing something wrong.â I was tipsy myself, high enough on gin to be unsure whether I was feeling delight or dread. âPromise me youâll tell.â
âYouâve been drinking,â she said. âThatâs a good start. Make sure everybodyâs drinking.â
As if surveillance were required. Guests hardly paused at the door before they steamed over to our little bar. I smelled scotch, bourbon, lots and lots of gin. Martin stood with a glass in each hand. Even Dik popped open a beer, which might have accounted for his toreador spin at the end of âWalkinâ After Midnight.â Once he started dancing, the man was as light on his feet as a sunbeam. When he and Alice whirled by, he said, âDancing puts us in harmony with all creation.â
âPreach on,â I said, and he winked.
Jeff was circulating, telling jokes, freshening drinks. From across the room I noticed for the first time that his yellow shirt, which I had never liked, lent his skin a summery glow. I caught up with him on the way to the kitchen for more ice.
âDid you see Martin?â
âAnd Lora,â he said. âLora Ruth, first of four daughters. Never divorced, grows tomatoes on her patio, rides a Kawasaki.â
âBlood type?â
âIâd say sheâs a universal donor.â
âI hope so,â Martin said, leaning around the other side of the kitchen door. âFelicia thinks I need some new