the marks, he guessed it had happened a long time ago, when she was very young.
He was studying her so carefully he almost forgot to answer her question. âNo, Iâm from Philly,â he said. âI came to New York just for the day.â
âWhat part of Philadelphia? I have some friends there.â
âThey probably donât live where I do. Itâs a rough neighborhood.â
âWhat, North Philly?â
âYeah, Kensington.â
She nodded. âIâve never been there, but Iâve heard of it. Lots of drugs and gangs, right?â
He wasnât surprised that Ariel knew about the place. Kensington was such a notorious slum, it was mentioned in most of the social-work textbooks. John had seen some of those books himself, back when he was taking classes at the community college, and when he read the descriptions of Kensington he wanted to tear out the pages. They werenât even close to the truth. The neighborhood was a hundred times worse.
But he didnât want to talk about Kensington or its gangs right now. The last thing he wanted to do was scare Ariel away by telling her he was once a soldier with the Somerset Street Disciples. He tried to change the subject. âYeah, thereâs gangs, but thereâs good people, too. And if you stick with the good people, you can stay out of trouble.â
She cupped her chin in her palm as she stared at him. Her index finger stroked the faint scar below her ear. âSo who kept you out of trouble?â
There was that directness again. She didnât waste any time. He couldnât think of a way to dodge the question, so instead he was honest with her. âWell, first it was the army, but that didnât last long. I didnât take well to the discipline, so they kicked me out. And then I got some help from a priest, believe it or not. Father Reginald Murphy of Saint Anneâs Church. He was the oldest, toughest priest in Philadelphia. All the gangs were terrified of him.â
âYou belonged to his church?â
âNah, Iâm not even Catholic. But he saw me running around the neighborhood with all the other thugs, and for some reason he made it his business to save me. Iâm still not sure why. He never told me.â John winced. It still hurt to think about the old man. âAnd now Iâm just trying to return the favor, you know? Trying to get a job where I can do something good. Maybe point a few kids in the right direction. Do the same thing for them that Father Murphy did for me.â
âYouâre talking about him in the past tense. Is he dead?â
John nodded. He opened his mouth, ready to tell Ariel that Father Murphy had died in his sleep. But that was a lie, and after a moment John realized he couldnât tell it. He couldnât tell her the truth either, so he just sat there with his mouth open, trying to think of something to say.
Then Ariel surprised him. She leaned closer and rested her right hand on his forearm. âLet me ask you something, John. Do you believe in God?â
He narrowed his eyes and stared at her. Oh, shit. Is this gorgeous girl a Jesus freak? His heart sank as he considered the possibility. Maybe she was trying to proselytize him. But a bar was an odd place to look for converts.
âNo, I donât believe.â He frowned. âDo you?â
She shook her head. âNo. It doesnât make any sense, does it?â
âWhat do you mean?â
âThe worldâs a mess.â She lifted her hand from his forearm and waved it in a circle. âI mean, look around. Thereâs no way that a loving God would create such a screwed-up world. God and heaven, itâs all just a fairy tale. Itâs amazing that anyone still believes it.â
Now John was even more surprised. The girl wasnât a Jesus freakâshe was a philosopher. He stopped frowning. This was the kind of conversation he enjoyed. âYou know what else