the dead man’s flat. And how the man
with him, a uniform, started vomiting and collapsed on to
the floor almost immediately. Not that you could really tell
what constituted the floor. That was the thing. The man had
wallpapered his whole flat with porn, torn from magazines,
jagged edge of flesh overlapping flesh, creating monstrosities
and freaks unbelievable and disturbing. A tableau like something
from the tormented mind of Hieronymous Bosch. But
it wasn’t just the walls. That wouldn’t have made the uniform
so sick, nor given Van Hijn a dizzying nauseous headache
like the constant spinning after stepping off a fairground
ride. No, it was the fact that everything had been wallpapered.
All the surfaces had been meticulously covered with porn:
the ceiling, totally covered, the chairs and the tables and the
table legs, the phone, the whole border and back of the TV,
everything but the screen. Within a couple of minutes Van
Hijn had lost all sense of perspective and depth. The room
seemed to pulsate, the floor to float. He reached out for
objects that turned out to be much further away than he
anticipated. Eyes followed him around the room. A woman
with six legs and thirteen breasts seemed to smile. And he
remembered the keepsakes that the rapist had mounted on
a porn-splashed altar, the reason for that smell, all thirty of
them, tagged and dated, with names and small photos
attached to each. They had to carry him out of there.
Van Hijn snapped out of the dark tangle of his memories
and stared at Beeuwers. The rain made him look like a piece
of discarded furniture. Van Hijn stepped forward and leaned
into the captain’s sweating face. ‘This is my case, always has
been, since the first body and I’m not going to let your goon
take over. I don’t care what the fuck you think about it.’
‘In that case you’ll find your transfer coming sooner than
even you anticipated, I assure you.’ The captain tried to smile,
to show him that yes, he was still in control, but he couldn’t
make it, his lips refusing to rise. He knew that the detective
had got the better of him this time. He would have to do
something about that.
Van Hijn winked at the captain. A faint smile, barely
discernible in the rain. He turned away before the captain
could answer. He didn’t care. There was nothing left to lose.
He hit the streets hard, his feet splashing the puddled rain,
his head hunched down, fists stuffed into his pockets. The
dialogue with the captain had angered him more than he’d
realized. Hadn’t demoting him been enough? Yet, there was
always this tendency to push home the further humiliation,
to consolidate the gain and destroy the enemy. He shouldn’t
have been surprised, or only at his own naivete perhaps.
He could go back to the cinema, catch the last hour of the
film, pretend he’d been there all along. No, somehow he
didn’t think that was going to work today. He could still see
the man’s scarred feet and the way the passers-by had
wrestled with each other to get a glimpse of the body before
it was carried away. His mouth felt dry and bitter, his head
heavy. He stopped at a cafe, ate two pieces of chocolate
pecan cheesecake, too fast, and stared at a poster advertising
a forthcoming fashion show. The redhead looked at him
from its surface, smiling, saying, who cares about all that and
what does it matter anyway? When the sugar hit, he felt his
whole body relax, deflate and soften like an old sponge
soaked in a bath. He smoked a cigarette and headed back
to the station, back to life and to the phone call that he has
to make.
This is how it begins. With Jon staring out of his window at
the space where the tramp once stood. Wondering where
the old man was. If he would come back again to this spot.
If he would come back at all.
He turned to the empty room, bare except for the clutter
and murmur of the accusing computer, the deadline
Eric Giacometti, Jacques Ravenne