I watch, the shorter one begins to ⦠stretch , sort of, his shape warping ever so slightly, until one eye is twice the circumference of the other. His right shoulder slowly develops a bulge that suggests a dislocated joint. His companion doesnât seem to notice.
Yooooo, nope. I get up and start picking my way through the crowd on the steps. Iâm doing that thing I do, trying to shunt off their gazeâbut it feels different this time. Sticky, sort of, threads of cheap-shit gum fucking up my mirrors. I feel them start following me, something immense and wrong shifting in my direction.
Even then Iâm not sureâa lot of real cops drip and pulse sadism in the same wayâbut I ainât taking chances. My city is helpless, unborn as yet, and Paulo ainât here to protect me. I gotta look out for self, same as always.
I play casual till I reach the corner and book it, or try. Fucking tourists! They idle along the wrong side of the sidewalk, stopping to look at maps and take pictures of shit nobody else gives a fuck about. Iâm so busy cussing them out in my head that I forget they can also be dangerous: Somebody yells and grabs my arm as I Heisman past, and I hear a man yell out, âHe tried to take her purse!â as I wrench away. Bitch, I ainât took shit , I think, but itâs too late. I see another tourist reaching for her phone to call 911. Every cop in the area will be gunning for every black male aged whatever now.
I gotta get out of the area.
Grand Centralâs right there, sweet subway promise, but I see three cops hanging out in the entrance, so I swerve right to take Forty-First. The crowds thin out past Lex, but where can I go? I sprint across Third despite the traffic; there are enough gaps. But Iâm getting tired, âcause Iâm a scrawny dude who doesnât get enough to eat, not a track star.
I keep going, though, even through the burn in my side. I can feel those cops, the harbingers of the enemy , not far behind me. The ground shakes with their lumpen footfalls.
I hear a siren about a block away, closing. Shit, the UNâs coming up; I donât need the Secret Service or whatever on me, too. I jag left through an alley and trip over a wooden pallet. Lucky againâa cop car rolls by the alley entrance just as I go down, and they donât see me. I stay down and try to catch my breath till I hear the carâs engine fading into the distance. Then, when I think itâs safe, I push up. Look back, because the city is squirming around me, the concrete is jittering and heaving, everything from the bedrock to the rooftop bars is trying its damnedest to tell me to go. Go. Go .
Crowding the alley behind me is ⦠is ⦠the shit? I donât have words for it. Too many arms, too many legs, too many eyes, and all of them fixed on me. Somewhere in the mass I glimpse curls of dark hair and a scalp of pale blond, and I understand suddenly that these areâthis isâmy two cops. One real monstrosity. The walls of the alley crack as it oozes its way into the narrow space.
âOh. Fuck. No,â I gasp.
I claw my way to my feet and haul ass. A patrol car comes around the corner from Second Avenue and I donât see it in time to duck out of sight. The carâs loudspeaker blares something unintelligible, probably Iâm gonna kill you , and Iâm actually amazed. Do they not see the thing behind me? Or do they just not give a shit because they canât shake it down for city revenue? Let them fucking shoot me. Better than whatever that thing will do.
I hook left onto Second Avenue. The cop car canât come after me against the traffic, but itâs not like thatâll stop some doubled-cop monster. Forty-Fifth. Forty-Seventh and my legs are molten granite. Fiftieth and I think Iâm going to die. Heart attack far too young; poor kid, shouldâve eaten more organic; shouldâve taken it easy and not