I then closedand locked the strongbox, stored it away, and shut the drawer. I carried the diary into the living room and sat in my comfy chair.
I breathed deeply. I fought the unease that crept up my spine. It was going to be painful, but I couldnât put it off any longer.
I opened the diary and started to read, and I was back in the world of the Black Stiletto.
2
Judyâs Diary
1960
J ANUARY 1, 1960
Good morning, dear diary. Or should I say good afternoon? I slept past noon, and boy, am I hungover. Yuck. I feel crummy. It was a great party, though. I think. What I remember of it, ha ha.
After I went back downstairs last night, the champagne really flowed. I made the mistake of also drinking a couple of Jack Danielâs with Coke. By the time midnight rolled around, the gym was spinning. I never got sick, though. I donât recall how I made it up to my room, but somehow I did.
The only thing I
do
remember was what Lucy told me, just before the clock struck twelve. She and Peter made a date for their wedding. Itâll be in May, but now Iâve forgotten the exact day. She asked me to be her maid of honor, and Iâm pretty sure I slurred, âIâll be happy to, Looshy!â
Gosh, itâs 1960. I can hardly believe it. A whole new decade. What will it bring? What kind of changes will we see? A bunch of them, or none at all? Thereâs a presidential election this year. Itâll be the first time I can vote in one. Actually, I was old enough in â56, but I didnât do it. I donât know why. I was too young to care then, I suppose. A new president always brings some changes, right? Now that I think about it, thereâs a lot going on that could use some change.Thereâs a bunch of trouble in the world. The Communists over in Russia are a big concern. They have bombs. We have bombs. Now that Cuba is also Communist, people are worried that itâs so close. Will it lead to war? Gosh, I hope not. And then theyâre training astronauts to fly into outer space. Will we go to the moon or to Mars? Wouldnât that be something? And thereâs a firecracker about to go off right here in America. The Negroes are demanding equal civil rights. Will Dr. King lead his people to victory? I hope there wonât be any violence.
Well, my stomach tells me I shouldnât be concerned about any of that right now. I need to go to the kitchen and put something in my belly before I
do
get sick. Maybe some toast and orange juice. Iâm not sure I can handle eggs right now.
Okay, Judy, put on your robe and make an appearance. I donât think more beauty sleep is going to make much difference, ha ha!
L ATER
Itâs nearly midnight again and I just came back from Bellevue Hospital.
Oh my Lord, Freddie had a heart attack today! Dear diary, Iâm so worried. The doctor says heâs going to be okay, but still, Iâve never seen Freddie look so bad. I swear I thought he was going to die in my arms.
When I left off earlier, I went to the kitchen to get some breakfast. Freddie was there at the table with his newspaper and a plate full of uneaten scrambled eggs. They were cold. I didnât know how long they were sitting there, but it must have been a couple of hours. Freddie was pale and had one arm around his chest. His brow was furrowed and he looked extremely uncomfortable.
âFreddie? Whatâs wrong?â
He just shook his head. âI must have had too much to drink last night. I have awful gas pains.â
Freddie never had hangovers. He had the ability to swallowbooze as if it was water and smoke a couple of packs of cigarettes at the same time. It never fazed him.
âHave you taken any Alka-Seltzer?â I asked as I went to the fridge to get the orange juice.
âWe donât have any.â
âWell, shoot, Freddie, why didnât you get me up? Iâll run out and get some for you.â I poured a glass of juice and looked back at