us ate leftover pizza for lunch, and went out back and sat in the loungers on the deck. Lying there, the muscles in my arms ached from all that throwing. My neck hurt from looking up. I kept going over the moves in my head when Mom got a phone call and started saying things like, âHoly cow, do you remember?â andâStop, Iâm going to hurt myself from laughing.â I closed my eyes and wondered who she was talking toâprobably my aunt Colleen, who wasnât really my aunt, just an old friend of Momâsâand wondered when Peter might get around to kissing me.
Would I be ready?
My parents were in front of the TV with wine in their glasses again when I came down after an after-dinner bath. âItâs on again ?â
âItâs a two-night premiere,â Dad said. âBefore it switches to just Fridays.â
Great. So Iâd spend another night being an outcast in my own family. And now Taylor and Alyssa would have more new stuff to talk about that I knew nothing about. â Please , can I watch?â I pressed my hands together as if in prayer.
Dad sounded tired. âJulia, honey. We said no.â
âBut Taylor watched it. Alyssa, too.â I could hear the whine in my voice but couldnât seem to replace it with a tone that was more reasonable, more mature.
âOh, great.â Mom reached for her wine. âWell, if Alyssa watches it!â
âWhoâs Alyssa?â Dad asked.
âThe new girl,â Mom said with some sharpness.
It was clear that that strategy was not going to work, that Iâd have to find another way. âWell, can I at least go out in the yard for an hour? Maybe Peterâs out with his telescope or something.â
Maybe Peter could figure out how to get his hands on the show.
âFine,â Mom said. âBut just for an hour. Weâre getting up early, and Iâm not dragging you around the city all day if youâre exhausted.â
âFine,â I said.
âLook out for cicadas!â Dad said.
âI donât think theyâre coming at all.â I opened the screen door.
Peter wasnât out stargazingâwe shared a fence at the back of our yardsâso I just sat for a while in one of the deck loungers and tried to pick out constellations.
Big Dipper.
Big deal.
I dreamed that I was being followed around the house by a buzzing, long-legged bug. I kept swatting it away but it kept coming back, all dangling and awful-looking, clicking in my face. I grabbed a glass from a kitchencabinet and trapped the bug under it, on the countertop, where I studied its red eyes, its clear wings, its hard brown shell. I pulled a pen out of a drawer with an index card and labeled it, Exhibit A .
5 .
Being a teacher was in my momâs blood so she couldnât shut it down on summer vacation. This trip to the city would probably involve a lesson in the history of skyscrapers or maybe the invention of plumbing. But it was a small price to pay for a shopping trip, and I was happy Iâd have Taylor to share head-nodding duties.
I rang Taylorâs bell Saturday morning, and she answered in her pajamas. âI canât go.â
âWhat? Why not?â
âI donât feel good.â She coughed, and I was sure it was fake. Something in the sound of it. Too shallow. Too dry.
âOh.â
I stopped myself from saying, You were fine yesterday.
âYeah, well.â She coughed again.
Again: fake.
I tried not to notice the way she kept looking over my shoulder, but I couldnât help it. I looked over toward Alyssaâs house and saw some movement in an upstairs window.
âWeâll go next Saturday instead!â I said. It was genius. âIâll go tell my mom!â
âNo.â Taylor shook her head and looked down. âYou should go. You shouldnât let your mom down. Weâll do something fun when I feel better.â
I tried to think of fun
Danette Haworth, Cara Shores