rebel and shall lose this house. If he does come back, he must subscribe his allegiance to the king at Scots Tavern, near City Hall. I warmly advise, madam, he wear the red ribbon to identify himself as a loyal subject.â He made a motion. One of the soldiers opened a pouch and held out a strip of red cloth.
Mother bobbed a curtsy and took it. âIâll be sure to tell him, sir.â
âFinally,â the officer went on, âthat room, where I presume your husband conducts his business, must be converted into your own sleeping quarters. The upstairs room will be taken over by the army.â
âSir?â
âMy orders are to find accommodations for our officers. Youâll be paid rent for the officerâs billeting.â
âWhen will your officer arrive?â
âSoon. Be so kind as to have the upstairs rooms in order. Good day to you, madam!â
Captain Mackenzie made a curt bow and ordered his soldiers to depart.
I shut the door behind them. Furious, I turned to Mother. âWhat were they looking for?â
âEvidence that your father was a rebel.â
I declared, âFather cannot sign that oath.â
Mother, fingering the red ribbon, said, âSophia, Mr. Calderwood will sign that oath if we wish to remain here.â
âBut if he doesnât believeââ
âChild!â snapped Mother. âWhat we think and what we say can no longer be the same! And we must not mention William.â
I took refuge in the fact that she called me âchildâ only when distraught.
âWhat if he appears?â
She glared at me. âDid you not see that hanging?â
That silenced me, for a moment. Then I said, âWhen do you think that British officerâthe one who will stay hereâwill come?â
âThe officer said âsoon,ââ Mother answered. âLetâs trust that Mr. Calderwood comes first, and unharmed. But you heard the officer. If your father doesnât arrive, weâll lose this house.â
âHe will come, wonât he?â
âI pray.â
âWe need William here.â
âSophia,â my mother said in her most severe voice, âfind your own courage!â
I was too dismayed to speak.
âLetâs get back to work,â said Mother, and she began by gathering up the torn pages of Common Sense and tossing them into the hearth.
In haste, I set to. All the while, I wondered what it would be like to have a stranger in our home. A British officer at that! I kept thinking of the officer who ledCaptain Hale to his death. What if he came to live with us. Or another as brutal? I supposed all were alike. Whoever he was, I knew I should despise him. But how would I ever learn to keep my emotions bottled? I was an ardent patriot. If I could not keep it secret, I knew the consequence.
Then I reminded myself: it didnât matter what I felt. Regardless, there was a fair likelihood we might yet lose our home, and worse.
5
AFTER WE HAD worked, cleaning and scrubbing and putting such furniture as remained back in place, Mother stood in the center of the almost empty common room. Her face was tense, her eyes closed. I could see her suffering.
âIâm sorry,â she said, âto have been cross. Itâs difficult to know what to say or do.â
âCould we send a message to Father that he needs to hurry?â
âImpossible.â
âIs there any place we could search for William?â
âI donât know where except that new prison.â
âThen we should go,â I urged.
Mother found a pin and attached the red ribbon to her sleeve. âHopefully,â she said, âthis will protect us.â
Latching the door, we set out along Broadway toward the Commons, some eight or nine streets north. The nearer we approached, the more British troops we saw.
I have learned that heart and eyes are one. Thatâs to say, one can see a thing, but