was distraught, and bereft, and grievingânot a felicitous combination for any of us.â
Amanda blinked the tears back from her eyes. âIndeed not, Papa.â Papa might think her strong, but in truth she had barely managed to hold the household together and was still trying to recover her spirits. Oh, how she yearned to escape Ashton Grove, all its problems and sad memories, and lose herself in the distractions of London!
Though her younger brother had lately arrived to add to her anxieties, Althea remained the most acute of her burdens. Her own feelings depressed and raw after Mamaâs death, Amanda couldnât help wishing she might be rid of the troublesomegirlâa desire Althea probably sensed, which did nothing to ease the tensions between them.
All her life, she reflected with another pang of grief, sheâd been wrapped in a protective cocoon of love and affection spun by her mother and grandmother, buoyed along the floodtide of events by a happiness and security sheâd taken for granted until the catastrophes of the last two yearsâlosing first Grandmama, then Aunt Felicia, then Mamaâhad stripped it from her. Her longing for supportive female company had been sharpened by her difficult relations with her cousin, the only female relative left to her.
Small wonder she yearned to reach London, where she would be staying with Lady Parnell, her motherâs dear friend whom sheâd had known since childhood. Perhaps the affection of this companion from Mamaâs own début Season might ease her grief and fill some part of the void left by the last two yearsâ devastating losses.
âSo you will speak to Althea?â she pleaded, hoping against hope Papa might be able to head off this new complication. ââTis for her own good, you know. What would Aunt Felicia say if she knew weâd allowed Althea to pursue a most unsuitable friendship with a common sailor?â
âYes, I know I must reprimand her, and I willâgently, though.â
Her chest squeezing in a surge of love for her kindly sire, Amanda couldnât help smiling. âI only ask that you try to guide her, Papa. You know as well as I you havenât the heart to reprimand anyone, no matter how much she might need it!â
âI suppose I have been too indulgent. But youâre quite rightâit is my responsibility to my dear sister to protect her daughter and counsel her as best I can.â
âPerhaps you could chat without my being present. Sheâd probably be more inclined to accept instruction if Iâm notlooking on. Well, I suppose I must go inform Cook about the changes in the dinner plans.â
âIâll escort you out,â Bronning said, rising and coming to take her hand. âOne of my prize mares is about to foal. I think Iâll take myself down to the barn and check on her.â
Accepting her fatherâs arm, Amanda walked back down the long hall to the marble entryway with him, her concern about Althea somewhat mollified. Given her cousinâs contemptuous disregard of her, there wasnât much else she could do but leave the matter in Papaâs hands.
They had just reached the grand entry when the front door was thrown back so violently it banged against the wall. Staggering across the threshold, Amandaâs brother George stumbled into the room, waving off the footman who sprinted over to take his coat.
Her father stopped abruptly and eyed his only son with alarm. âGeorge, whatâs amiss? Have you suffered an injury?â
With his red face and bleary eyes, hair in disarray, neck-cloth coming undone and his waistcoat misbuttoned, George did indeed look as if he might have been in an altercationâa fear Amanda initially shared, before a strong odour of spirits wafted to her.
Her initial concern turned swiftly to irritation as she recalled her brother had not appeared at dinner last evening. Most likely heâd
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