she reached over and squeezed his penis through his pajama pants.
âLet me see your pussy,â he told her.
Bella closed her eyes, took her hand off his penis, and pulled her dress up. She moved her panties to the side.
She didnât know how she was supposed to feel, a part of her wanted to cry but desperate times called for desperate measures.
That night, on top of her babysitting money, she received an extra fifty dollars, just for letting him masturbate while she rubbed on herself.
This soon became a routine of theirs. He often asked her to babysit or when his wife wasnât home he said he needed someone to watch the kids while he worked around the house.
Between Mr. Lee wanting to see her again and her making money off of stolen clothes, she figured she just might be able to move in two monthsâ time, three at the most.
Bella knew she was wrong for what she was doing but all she was thinking about was survival, hers.
Stealing was easier than she thought, especially when the stores were busy. She discovered she didnât have to be down with anyone, she could do this on her own.
Over the next couple of weeks Bella wore her new clothes to school. When someone complimented her on her gear, she let it slip what she was doing. She even cut her price under 50 percent to beat out the competition.
Bella tried to justify what she and Mr. Lee were doing by telling herself it wasnât that bad because she wasnât having sex with him, he just liked to see her naked and play with himself. If he tried to take it further, she was going to end it. Actually, it depended on how much he would offer her.
It didnât take long for her to find out. After a month of seeing him about twice a week, he finally asked for sex. Scared because she was still physically a virgin, she told him no but when he told her to name her price, she decided to reconsider.
This just might be it, this just might be my opportunity to leave.
âOne thousand dollars,â she told him while she thought there was absolutely no way he would agree to it.
To her surprise he did and they arranged for her to cut school so they would meet at a hotel.
This was not the way Bella thought she would lose her virginity but at least she was being paid for it.
She put it in her mind that she was going to have to lose it one day anyway and at least this way it was all under her control.
That day they met at the Holiday Inn, Bella was scared out of her mind. How bad was it going to hurt? How would it happen? She asked herself all these questions and more. Not that it mattered because her clothes were packed. After this was over, she would not be returning to the Reedsâ home.
Before anything happened, she asked him for the money. He handed it over. He also pulled out a little yellow pill.
âWhatâs that?â she asked.
âItâs something to ease your nerves.â
âI donât do drugs.â
âItâs not really a drug.â
Bella gave him the Iâm not stupid look .
He insisted that she take it. âItâll take the edge off,â he told her. âYouâll be more relaxed.â
After taking the pill and having a couple of drinks, Bella lost her virginity, all for the sake of cash.
When they were done, Bella saw the blood on the sheets and told Mr. Lee that she was ready for him to leave, that she needed to be by herself.
Of course, he begged to see her again. She just looked at him. She knew sheâd never be returning to this place or be in his presence anymore.
Bella didnât remember a thing about the sex and that was a good thing, but when she saw the blood on the sheets she cried, stood up, took the sheets off the bed, and stuffed them in the garbage can. She then went into the bathroom to take a bath.
As she waited for the tub to fill with water, she thought to herself, I have over three thousand dollars in cash and the ability to steal, what more could a girl ask