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be pretty darn free.
    I think that first Annemarie would’ve been worthy of a name like Shug. Not me, though. I’m like Miss Celie on the inside, scared of everything. But in the end, even that old scaredycat Celie finds out how to live, how to be . She shows everybody what she can do; she shows them all. I want that too.

chapter 4
    Celia comes home early the next morning and goes straight to bed. She is always cranky after a sleepover with Margaret, and then she sleeps till noon. When she finally emerges, I am sitting at the kitchen table, reading.
    Our kitchen is one of my favorite places in the whole house. There are lots of windows, and the sun shines through all day. Mama has Marc Chagall prints on the wall. They used to scare me, but I have come to admire them.
    “Hey, Shug. Where’s Mama?” Celia asks, pouring herself a glass of orange juice. She rumples my hair and sits across from me.
    “She went to the art museum with Gail,” I say, taking her juice before she can have the first sip. Gail is Mama’sfriend from work. Mama is the part-time activities director at the Rosemont Retirement Community, and Gail is one of the nurses.
    Celia snatches it right back. She drinks some, and hands it back to me.
    “What did you and Margaret do?” I ask, finishing the glass.
    “We just hung out with some of the guys,” Celia says vaguely. “You want lunch?”
    I say yes, and Celia cooks us cheddar omelets and bacon. As we eat, I watch her and think about how much she looks like Daddy. She has Mama’s green eyes, but the rest of her is all Daddy. Her hair is soft and brown like a puppy’s, and she has Daddy’s smile. Her hair hangs down her back in soft curls, and she is wearing her old Snoopy T-shirt. I’m so busy thinking how pretty she is that I almost forget to tell her my big news.
    My mouth full of bacon, I say, “Celia, guess what.”
    “What? And don’t talk with your mouth full; it’s gross.”
    I open my mouth wider and stick my tongue out, bacon bits and all. Celia shakes her head in disgust. “I like someone,” I say.
    “Who?”
    And then, in that moment, I know I can’t tell Celia. Notthis time. Not before I get him, and not until he’s mine.
    The lie comes out before I even have time to think it through. “Kyle Montgomery.”
    “Kyle? Didn’t you have a crush on him in fourth grade? I thought you were over Kyle.”
    “Yeah, but that was kid stuff. I didn’t really know what love was back then. This is the real thing,” I say. It is the real thing too. It’s as real as anything I’ve ever felt, and when I am old, people might try and tell me different, I might even tell myself different, but I know that at this moment, I love Mark Findley.
    “I see him in a whole new way now. I see him … as the boy he is today, and the man he will one day be.”
    Celia laughs. “You’re still such a kid, Shug. What you’re feeling right now is just puppy love. But don’t worry: Kyle’s sweet. He’ll make a good first boyfriend.”
    Ha! What does she know? Celia, who’s had more boyfriends than I’ve had socks. She doesn’t know the first thing about true love.
    “First of all, I’m not a kid anymore,” I say coldly, ignoring Celia’s smirk. “And second of all, that’s the whole problem, Miss Expert on Love, always thinking you know everything! He doesn’t like me.”
    “Why not?”
    “He likes someone else.”
    Celia’s eyes narrow, and she looks just like Mama. “Who?”
    “Just some girl at school,” I say. “She’s a bit more womanly than me.”
    Celia snorts. “You, Shug? A woman?” She throws her head back and laughs like one of those crazy hyenas from The Lion King .
    I glare at her. “Oh ha ha ha, poor pathetic Shug. I come to you for advice about this—this harpy, and this is what I get.” We learned about harpies during the Greek mythology unit at school last year. Harpies were monsters who were part woman, part bird, and they had talons and they would shriek and