described as Sammy Davis laughter. The way Sammy Davis used to laugh when Johnny Carson said something funny.
Pounding with appreciation on the side of the hot tub, kicking their feet in the water. “Thanks a million, Maximilian.” Those
four words had become a standard phrase among them after that. Part of their group language. The way they’d express their
gratitude to one another, forever afterward.
Thanks a million, Maximilian. Jan laughed to herself now, thinking that one good evening with her women friends could keep
her going for months afterward. Then she looked over at Shannon Michaels, in the next makeup chair, jabbering away so confidently.
Noticed the way the young woman tossed her hair and joked with Bert about her date last night, and she was reminded of herself
at that age. The way all beautiful young ingenues behave, never imagining the day will come when they’ll be the leading lady
in the next chair so desperately worried about the future.
MAGGIE STANDS ANGRILY.
MAGGIE
Did you hear me, Lydia? I don’t know how you got in here, but I want you gone.
LYDIA
I don’t care what you want. Justtell me where Phillip is so I can go to him.
LYDIA PULLS OUT A GUN.
MAGGIE
Put that away, Lydia. Don’t be insane. Phillip means nothing to me. I swear to you…
LYDIA SMIRKS AND COCKS THE GUN. ON MAGGIE’S FACE. WE CUT TO:
Wow, great opening scene, Jan thought as she turned the pages looking for more scenes for Maggie, but there weren’t any more
in Friday’s show. They were ending the week with Maggie’s life in jeopardy. They were going to play that scene on Friday,
so she had to go home for the weekend not knowing until her pages arrived, and maybe not even then, if she was going to live
or die. The paranoia crept into her mind and lodged there. She had to get herself to Ed Powell’s office and talk about it
right now.
Her hands were damp and she wiped them on the protective Kleenex Bert had stuffed in her collar. “Fight for yourself,” Ellen
would say. “No agent will do it for you.” Shannon and Bert were laughing a yuck-it-up kind of laugh while Jan took the last
of the now-cool rollers out of her hair, ran a brush through the stiff curls, and walked out of the makeup room and down the
hall to the elevator. As it rose to the fifth floor, she thought nervously about what she ought to say when she got to the
producer’s office.
The fifth-floor hallway was a gallery of black-and-white eleven-by-fourteen portraits of the cast. She stopped to look at
the one of herself taken in the seventies, when she’d joined the show to play “the evil vixen, Maggie.” She was thirty-four
that year. God, I was a vision, she thought with a mixture of pride and wonder. And when she took a step back, the light from
above made the protective glass on the photo reflect her tired, nearly fifty-year-old face, over her glamorous young one.
She sighed and turned and walked down the lushly carpeted hall, still not sure what she’d say to the producer, and feeling
even less confident than she had in the elevator. Ed Powell’s secretary, Maxine, must have gone to the ladies’ room, because
no one was in the reception area. Perfect, Jan thought, and she walked right past Maxine’s desk into Powell’s office. Jan
had survived four producers in her fifteen years on this show. They had all either quit or been fired, and the new ones seemed
to be getting younger each time.
Last month Ed Powell celebrated a birthday which he kept referring to with dismay as “the big four-oh,” as if that number
made him ancient. Ed looked up, surprised at first to see her, but then he smiled a very forced smile. “Janny Bear,” he said.
The big welcome was completely phony. In his eyes she could see he was wondering, “How the fuck did she get past that pit
bull Maxine?”
“I came up so you could tell me what Lydia is going to do with the gun, Ed,” Jan said, holding up the