fantasies true, I couldn’t wait.
He fingered me first and made sure that he had set my body into the right rhythm.
“You are already so wet, Emily,” he said and continued to stroke me. His fingers kept playing and I knew he was easing the tension and making my vagina ready for penetration.
As his hands were driving me crazy, I wanted to hold his dick too, and I cradled his thick cock in my hands. He too could feel the sexual drive. We were both having a moment and I loved the way it felt.
“Do you love me, Emily?” he asked and I still couldn't get myself to speak those words. Yes, I was attracted and the sex was mind boggling, but I didn’t know what love felt like.
I couldn’t utter those three golden words and when Xavier realized that he shouldn’t have asked me, he smiled and decided to seize the moment by penetrating me.
He pushed his dick slightly and then a little deeper and then started pacing up and down.
I felt sweat breaking over my body and as he whispered in my ears, “here I go and take your esteemed virginity away,” he pushed deeper and touched my G-spot and my orgasm crashed my body just as he ejaculated inside me and filled my hole.
Liquid pleasure shot through my body and I smiled, knowing that the wait was worth it. It was worth every single moment. I kissed Xavier and I knew I felt happy and pleased.
I didn’t know if it was right or wrong – if love was supposed to feel that way or not. I have never been in love and never had intercourse with anyone else in my life. It was my first and though it certainly felt great, but there was just something about the entire incident that felt missing. I had no experience and could not compare that feeling to anything else. It was my first time and I was simply lost in my own thought.
As I lay with Xavier by my side, it certainly felt great. I started to believe in love and that just like everyone else, I could also get my happy ending. But did my happy ending really led to Xavier? He was a great guy and he has always been honest with me. I was the only person in the entire world who knew his secret.
He was a great friend and I knew that he would always be there by my side no matter what. But that was not love, right? Yes, he was good in bed and I had a great time having sex with him, but was sex enough?
I had no idea about it. I was simply lost and didn’t know what I was feeling. I was getting lost in my own thought and there was certainly no escaping them. I simply lay there with Xavier by my side and saw his fall asleep. I could hear the beat of his heart and tried to give myself some consolation. It would make sense one day, I knew – but it was getting to that one hard day that was the toughest deal.
Chapter 6:
The next few weeks passed in the same way. Xavier was trying to get closer and would stay by my side all the time. I had no intentions to push him away. Frankly, I was enjoying his company as well. He was my best friend and I would any day love to have him by my side. Though, I didn’t know if I wanted him as a friend or my boyfriend. According to him, we two were dating and were in the process of “falling in love”.
I was not a doctor of love, but I did know that it was supposed to be effortless. He used to make it sound like a tough job. For him, falling in love was a sacred act that included some pre-determined series of steps. But it wasn’t supposed to be like that, right? It should be effortless. I should love him from the whole of my heart and soul. He was a great guy and I wanted to be with him in the long run, but he was just making it very complicated for the both of us.
One such day, we both were out and were walking down the street which led to our locality. I had a rough day and simply wanted to go home. I knew that Xavier had no bad intentions and he was just curious about our world. Usually, I would explain him everything as per my knowledge, but I simply wanted a break that day. I just wanted to go
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