Charlene said.
Grandma nodded. âVery.â
âDid you get those when you were little?â Ruthie asked. âI sure would love pretty dolls like them.â She stared into the living room like a dog pouting over a bone just out of reach.
Grandma smiled. âNo. Your grandfather bought one for me every year on my birthday and then each Christmas after we were married.â
âTheyâre real nice,â I offered.
Charlene took a sip of water and almost choked. âChip, you donât like dolls. Mama got you a doll when you were a baby and you chewed all the fingers off it.â
Mama shook her head, smiling. âYou never asked for another one.â
I tucked my bottom lip under my front teeth. âThat doesnât mean anything. Those dolls, theyâre nice, Grandma. Real nice.â
Mama, Charlene, and Ruthie all looked at me.
âWhat? They are,â I said, suddenly real keen to study the pattern of roses and vines on Grandmaâs plates.
âThank you, Brenda,â Grandma said. âI like them too.â
Everyone started chattering more about dolls and dresses, but I had nothing else to say, so I shoveled down the horrible okra Grandma had made for dinner as fast as I could and asked to be excused. I ran back to my room and stayed up there until the house was quiet and I got bored staring at the owl, waiting to see if I could catch it moving. I wrote Billy a letter telling him about the car ride down and the hawk Iâd seen in West Virginia flying with a snake dangling from its talons. Billy wouldâve loved that. I didnât get any kind of sign from Daddy, so I went down to the patio. Maybe thereâd be a sign out there.
Mama and Charlene and Grandma were sitting in chairs, all huddled up together.
âYouâve only had Charlene in six pageants?â Grandma asked. âWeâll have to get Ruthie started soon.â
Worse than dolls. They were talking about pageants. I sat down in a chair and tried not to groan.
Mama picked up Ruthie and she looped her arms around Mamaâs neck and snuggled into her chest.
âDonât worry about Chip,â Charlene said, crossing her long, thin legs. âIâve already told her sheâs not pageant material. She needs to know so she wonât be embarrassed. I look out for her like that, Grandma.â She shrugged like she couldnât help being the best big sister in the world, which was not true no matter how big she smiled when she said it.
Grandma looked at me. I knew she was staring at the pale red birthmark splashed on my cheek. My angelâs kiss. Thatâs what Daddy always called it.
I ignored Charlene and watched a toad hop across the bricks in the patio. I wouldâve caught him if we werenât at Grandmaâs and on our best behavior. I sat on my twitching fingers to be sure. He was a nice big toad.
âMiss Dogwood is five weeks away? Oh my, so much to do,â Mama said, fanning herself. But her cheeks glowed that pretty pink color like they used to before Daddy died.
âWe can do it,â Grandma said. âItâs just what we need. A pageant to keep us busy.â
âI suppose youâre right.â Mama sighed and dropped her head back. âItâs good to be back south. I just never felt right up north. Itâs so darn cold, and everythingâs so fast.â
âOf course you didnât like it. I told you to stay away from that Yankee .â Grandma spit the word out.
âMother . . .â
âWhat did I expect, though? You never did listen to me,â Grandma said in a low voice.
Mamaâs mouth tightened. âYes, well, you didnât . . .â She glanced over at us.
I looked back and forth from Mama to Grandma. There were more secret looks and words bouncing between them than a handful of Super Balls.
Grandma patted the arms on her lawn chair. âThis is where you belong, Cecelia.