“It’s not that it doesn’t need doing up, Lottie – it would be lovely to see it restored to its former glory. But there’s a difference between wrenching up trees and putting in golf bunkers, and simply mowing the grass.” Mum wipes her nose on her sleeve. “And a hotel is a very different thing to a home; I just can’t bear to think of it all ripped out and replaced with fakery, it would be—”
“I understand,” I say quietly. Although I don’t, not entirely. Apart from anything else, I don’t know how I feel about it. I don’t want the man in the expensive suit to have Irene’s things; I don’t really want him bossing builders about, standing by Irene’s old iron bedstead, his shined shoes on her worn rag-rug, but I also love the idea of what the house could become, the skanky kitchen gone, the rooms all white and gleaming. The steps cleared and fixed. The trees cut back away from the frontof the house.
I open my mouth to speak again, and decide not to.
Perhaps I’ll ask Sophia about it while we’re away; she must know something.
If she’ll want to be seen with me.
Only friends lie for youâ¦
The coach leaves in ten minutes. Dadâs offered to drive us to school but I wish he hadnât. Our car was built in the last century â the last millennium, even. It used to be red, but the redâs gone and now itâs kind of silver, except at the bottom where itâs still red. Last time Mum took it to a car wash half the paint came off.
I hate it.
On the way here, we passed Ireneâs house, shaded by the tall ash trees that now surround it. A squirrel threw itself along the branches as we drove past, and the windows looked back at us blank and dark.
It made me feel deeply sad.
And cross.
We park next to a huge black Range Rover that is so big our car could probably park inside it. At the back stands Sophia, looking tiny, by a pile of green and gold luggage that includes a tennis racket and a violin. They seem ambitious for Bream that, as I remember it, is mostly mud or sand. She doesnât look very happy.
I try to think of something to say.
Hi â remember me? The one who talks too much?
Or
Sorry about Mum and the dead chicken.
Or
Iâm beautiful inside, Iâm just trapped in blubber
.
I donât say any of it.
Dad springs out of our car and I realise heâs wearing a boiler suit and orange wellingtons and is in need of containing in case he attempts any social interaction. I struggle out past Nedâs walking poles and grab Dad, pushing him back towards the car before he has a chance to mingle.
âCan you get my bag out, please, itâs really heavy?â I ask as Ned nudges past and plunges into the boot of the car through the back seat before dragging his bag over my foot.
âOw! Ned!â I squeal, but he ignores me.
âAre you wearing make-up, sis?â he asks. âMiss Sackbutt wonât like that â howâd you sneak it past Mum?â
âShhh! Ned, shut up or Iâll use Oddjob as a hairclip.â
âOh, I didnât bring him in the end; brought Pinky and Perky instead. Thought Roman snails would be less trouble. Oh, and Dad, thanks for lending me the compass watch,â he says, tightening the laces on his walking boots. âSo looking forward to orienteering on the moor. Iâve already signed up.â
âExcellent stuff,â says Dad, pulling out my backpack and wincing at the weight. âShame you couldnât have the smaller one, Lottie, but if Mum and I go to Cornwall for a couple of days moth-hunting, then weâll need it. Youâll mostly be flopping about in the mud at Bream, I should imagine; just leave this old thing in the bunkhouse.â
I kick my ridiculous rucksack. It looks like something the Victorian army might have used on manoeuvres. I glance around; everyone else has something small and pretty with logos and nylon iPod holders. I could cry.
Dad gives it an