Sarah Thornhill Read Free

have than not. The best if you can get it. The best meant meat every day. All the potatoes you could eat, with sweet fresh butter.
    And oranges. Never seen an orange before I were twelve year old, he’d say, not to eat. It was a bit of joke between me and Mary, one of the things we did share. Every time Anne brought in a dish of oranges Pa would force his great square thumb into one and lever up a piece of peel. Never seen an orange before I were twelve year old, he’d say. Not to eat .
    Mary and me would slip each other a look. She’d suck her lips into a fishmouth and I’d have to make out I was snorting because of my tea going down the wrong way.
    Ma would give us the rounds of the kitchen later. Your pa known some hard times, she’d say. You silly girls don’t know the half of it.

    There was Mrs Devlin in the kitchen and Anne the maid-of-all-work. A woman once a week for the washing and a native boy for the wood. Still, girls of our class, well-off but not gentry, we learned all the household things. Mrs Devlin showed us how to do the bread and keep the yeast bottle going, the basic things like that, and Ma taught us the finer points , how to slice the bacon thin and the way to fold the flour into a sponge cake so it stayed light. Mary liked working in the kitchen, but I got sick of Mrs Devlin forever on about Mr Devlin that died, and Ma saying oh yes, how hard life was for a poor widder. I didn’t want to spend my time sweating away at the stove, everything eaten by half past twelve and not a thing to show for it.
    I learned how to make a loaf and pickle a brisket of beef and all the rest of it, because that’s what a girl was supposed to know. But I’d get away soon’s I could. I had a place of my own, a cave in the bush up behind the house. It was a steep scramble but not far. Close enough so I could be back if Ma called, she’d never know I was gone. Far enough, it was my own world. That country was full of overhangs where the soft yellow rock was worn away underneath, but this one was big enough to stand in and full of light the colour of honey. The floor level, soft with dry sand fallen from the roof, never wet by rain, not since the world began.
    I set up house there, the way a child likes to do. Had a chipped teacup and a milk-jug with no handle and a dipper, because on top of the cave was a hole, made by man or nature I didn’t know, that filled with sweet water after rain. The lip of the cave was on a level with the treetops. You could sit there and watch the breeze shivering through the leaves and the river beyond, a band of colour like a muscle. When you sat in the cave the bush sounds come to you sharper. It was like a big ear, listening.
    Mary never wanted to go up there. Said she couldn’t see why you’d want to climb up there and get all over prickles just to sit on the hard ground. That suited me. The birds were company enough. One I called the What Bird, it had a call like a question. Dit dit dit dit dit? it would go, and I’d screw my mouth round to answer, Dit dit dit dit?
    I thought about flying, stood sometimes on the edge of the rock and wondered. But much as I’d of liked to, and young as I was, I had the sense to know I’d have to wait for some other way to fly.

N ONE OF us Thornhills had our letters, but you didn’t need a book to work out how to count, at least what you had the fingers for.
    One day, I’d of been five or six, I went out to Pa on the verandah. A shiny morning, the river with a brush of wind on it that sent a handful of sparkles across the water.
    I got three brothers, I said. See, Pa? I know how to count!
    His face always seemed bigger than other people’s. Big chin, big nose, big cheeks. And his eyes, the way one was a different shape from the other, that you only saw when he looked at you straight on. Which he did that time. Those blue eyes, and his mouth a funny shape.
    No, Dolly, he said. You got