much, but the organic cardboard flavor was a surprise. Because we donât waste food in this family, I have to finish the box, even though I hate it.
I go to the dishwasher, which Baba left open, and pick out a spoon and my ceramic bowl with the faded bunny in the center, the one Iâve also used since I was five. Then I sit down at the kitchen table.
âI forgot the milk,â I announce, hoping Baba will get it for me. His eyes are glued to the coffeepot. If you donât take it off the heat as soon as it comes to a boil, the pot will spill over. And Baba never lets his coffee spill over.
I get up and open the refrigerator, and when I lift the milk carton, itâs light. Itâs light because itâs empty. This is so not going to be my day. Mom enters right on cue. Sheâs dressed already.
âGood morning,â she says, walking past me, skipping the kiss on my cheek sheâs given me every morning as far back as I can remember.
I drop the empty milk carton in the recycling bin. On any other morning, Iâd ask her if she was the one who left it empty in the fridge.
Mom turns on the gas under her teakettle. âThe coffee!â she shouts.
Baba pulls the pot off the heat but not before most of it has overflowed onto the stove.
Baba grumbles something in Arabic, grabbing a sponge.
Mom takes the sponge out of his hand. âGo take your shower. Iâll clean up the mess and make you another pot, okay?â
Baba nods, and as he leaves the room, he says, âIf I get a call, come and get me, even if Iâm in the shower.â
I sit down with my cardboard cereal, take one bite, and almost choke because itâs so dry.
âAre you okay?â Mom asks, handing me a glass of water. âWhy are you eating dry cereal?â
I gulp down the water. âNo milk.â
Mom walks back to the sink and rinses out the sponge. Now I know sheâs furious with me. If things were even just a little okay, my mother wouldâve offered to make me something else to eatâan omelet, toast, anything.
âIâm really sorry, Mom.â
âMariam.â She turns to me. âYour father and I have decidedââ
The phone rings. I canât take this. The punishment canât be as bad as the waiting for it.
Before either one of us can answer, Baba comes running into the kitchen, wearing only a towel around his waist. He grabs for the phone.
Thereâs a short pause as Baba listens; then he begins to speak in Arabic. He doesnât look upset anymore; heâs almost smiling.
Momâs staring so hard at him sheâs not even blinking. I know she doesnât understand much Arabic, so she must know whatâs going on.
â Alaikum salaam , Mama,â Baba says in closing. Babaâs talking to Sittu. After Baba hangs up, Mom moves closer to him. âSheâs very happy,â he says. Baba looks over at me and back at Mom. They exchange that not-in-front-of-the-child look I know all too well.
âMariam, make the coffee,â Mom says.
âSure,â I say, as if I could say anything else. But they have never, ever let me make the coffee. I have to beg to boil water. Whatever is going to happen to me must be bad. Really bad.
âMake sure you bring it to a boil three times,â Baba reminds me as he and Mom head to their bedroom.
Like I donât know this already. Eventually, the coffee boils. I lift. I count out loud like Baba does. âOneâ¦twoâ¦threeâ¦fourâ¦fiveâ¦â As I put the pot back on the stove and wait for the second boil, the phone rings again. Baba left the phone on the counter beside me, and I can see that the call is from ROBERTS, CAROLE.
For a second, I think it might be Deannaâs mom, but when I answer, itâs Deanna. She is crazy.
âI donât think we should talk right now,â I say.
âDid your parents tell you?â
âOh no, the coffee!â I drop the