theyâre gone,â the older guy said, still by the doors; he let out a deep breath, then turned to me, offered his hand. âIâm Daniel.â
âJesse,â I said, shaking his hand.
âDonât shoot us,â he said with a smile.
I looked down at the pistol, the familiar unwelcome weight that could so easily carry with it a list of demands.
âYeah, that was intense,â I said, reaching back and tucking it into the side pocket of my pack.
âNameâs Bob.â The guy with the shaved head, Bob, shook my hand; he filmed the exchange.
âYou guys here getting supplies?â I asked, gesturing to some crates of canned and packaged food.
âYep,â Daniel replied. âYou?â
âIâm on my way toââ Then I thought better of it. Play it cool, I decided. âJust passing through.â I knew it sounded weak, and it clearly wasnât enough to satisfy.
âWhere have you been based since the attack?â
âMidtown, near Rockefeller Center,â I said. âIs all that food just for the two of you?â
âThereâs about forty of us,â Daniel said.
âForty?â
âAnd counting,â Bob added. âSeems to grow by the day, and I usually get the short straw to be sent out on foraging trips.â
âWhat about you?â Daniel asked.
âJust me,â I said. His eyes searched mine and I looked to the floor. I didnât want to tell these two guys about Rachel and Felicity, not yet. Bob kept the camera rolling and as I felt myself holding back from these guys its beady eye began to make me feel self-conscious. âIâm out here alone, arenât I?â
âWell,â Bob said, his face softened by a big grin, âyouâre not alone anymore, little buddy.â
Daniel clarified: âWhat he means, Jesse, is that youâre welcome to come by and see our setup: have something to eat, stay around if you like it.â
Bob added, âItâs safe, and got everything youâd want or need.â
âUp to you.â
âThanks, guys,â I said, stalling. At that moment I was thinking of Calebâthe way heâd encouraged me to spend more time with him, not to race back to Rachel and the animals, and Iâd listened to him, and . . . well, I made a good friend as a result, sure, but Iâd lost time and weâd wasted . . . ah, hell.
âWell, canât hang around here forever,â Daniel said, hefting a crate off a bench. âBob, letâs get this stuff home.â Big plastic bins of food that theyâd ransacked from this place were packed and ready to go, a good several hundred poundsâ worth.
âHow are you getting that back?â I asked.
âPickup out front,â Daniel replied. âBob, load the rest of those wine boxes, too.â
âOn it,â Bob said. He was a hulk of a man but obedient to Daniel like a smart dog, or a UFC heavyweight on a tight leash. He handled those bins and boxes more easily than I could heft a bucket of water.
âHere, Iâll help you,â I said, realizing I was reluctant to let go of these guys completely. Iâd let Caleb go, just like Anna, Mini, and Dave, the friends Iâd kept alive in my imagination for the first dozen days. Iâd known them in life for only a couple of weeks, but when I saw them dead I decided to carry on with the living images in my head. I tried to do that with Caleb, but all I could see was his bloody mouth as he hovered over a dead or dying soldier.
Had I lost Felicity and Rachel by leaving them at the zoo? Was it worth risking more loss by making new friends now? And why these people? Who knew who else would turn up on my way to Chelsea Piers? Maybe there were pockets of good survivors somewhere, groups whoâd managed to hold it together, who were frightened but dealing with it.
Daniel led the way outside. He took his time looking around and
Temple Grandin, Richard Panek