time was the same except I didnât go out of my mind with worry.â
âSo in both of those instances, he behaved much as he did this time?â
âExactly. The first time, it took hours before I realized he was gone. The manâs a doctor and, naturally, he was often delayed. By midnight, I was wildâclose to hysterical. I thought Iâd go mad.â
âYou called the police?â
âI called everyone I could think of. Then first thing the next morning, a note arrived in the mail. He said heâd come home eventually, which is exactly what he did. I was furious, of course, but he seemed totally unconcerned. Fool that I am, I forgave him and we went on as before. The marriage was good, or good enough from my perspective. I thought he was happyâuntil this business with Crystal. For all I know, heâd been fooling around with her for years.â
âWhat made you stay?â
âI thought he was a good husband. Thatâs how innocent I was. He tended to be distant, but I didnât fault himâat least, on a conscious level. I might have harbored resentments, but I wasnât aware of them. Looking back, I realize there are many ways a man can disappear.â
âSuch as?â
She shrugged, stubbing out her cigarette. âTelevision, sleep, alcohol, books, uppers, downers. Iâm speaking in general terms, but you get my drift.â
âAnd in his case?â
âDow buried himself in his work. Went in early, stayed at the office until all hours of the night. What you have to understand about him is, heâs someone who avoids disagreements. Thatâs why he loves the elderlyâbecause they make no real demands on him. Being a physician gives him status, which has always been better, in his mind, than having to be accountable like any ordinary mortal.â
âHow long were you married?â
âClose to forty years. We met at Syracuse. I was majoring in art history and he was pre-med. We married shortly after graduation. Dow went on to medical school at Penn State and did his internship and residency out here. By then, we had the girls. I stayed home with them until they were both in school and then I went back and got my masterâsin interior design. I designed the house we built soon afterward in Horton Ravine. Of course, we hired an architect to handle all the nuts and bolts.â
âHe still owns that house?â
âYes, though Crystal doesnât care for it from what Iâve heard.â
âYou didnât ask for the house in the settlement?â
âI couldnât afford the mortgage and upkeep. To hear him tell it, he was fleeced. Strictly his point of view. Believe me, he got the better deal. He probably paid someone offâthe judge, my lawyer. You know how men stick together when it comes to the almighty buck.â
I noticed she was busy shading my perception, scoring points for her team. Divorced folk always seem to angle for your sympathy, casting themselves in the best possible light. It seemed odd, in this case, when the reason for my visit was to see if I could be of help in the search for him. Was she still in love with the man? âIt must have been difficult when the marriage broke up,â I murmured.
âHumiliating. Devastating. It was such a cliché. Doctor goes through a midlife crisis, leaves his middle-aged wife to take up with some whore.â
The papers had had a field day with the fact that Crystal had been a stripper. Still, I questioned Fionaâs use of the word âwhore.â Stripping, as a way of earning money, doesnât necessarily translate into hookerdom. For all we knew, Crystal might have earned her masterâs in psychiatric social work. âHow did he meet her?â
âYouâd have to ask her that. The truth is, Dow developed an appetite for . . . mmm . . . unusual sexual practices. His hormones were off or his anxiety levels began to