isnât it?â
âYes, sir.â
âAre you feeling ill?â
âNo, sir.â
Drawer Three, he thought. The Pill.
âBut you want to talk with a doctor.â
âI want a prescription, sir.â A distant speech of soft vowels, southern, a speech restrained by shyness and courtesy, a pleasure for Merriwether whose own speech had almost Bostonian âaâsâ and other piquancies of New England, derived perhaps from the tight mouth of skeptic reserve, the residue of generations of legal and theological hair-splitting. Or, perhaps, from the endemic New England constipation, the holding back as long as possible before going out to the icy latrine.
âPlease sit down.â The yellow skirt drew up, just concealing that for which she sought prescription. âAs you know, a doctor canât prescribe before he examines.â
âYes, sir. I want a prescription for the contraceptive pill.â
âHave you had a prescription before?â
âAt school, but I didnât get it renewed last time. I thought I could get it here in Student Health.â
âHave you had a Pap test recently?â
âIn April.â
âWe make a point of talking a bit about these chemical contraceptives.â
âYes, sir. Iâve had some talks about them.â
âThatâs fine. Have you noticed anything unusual since youâve taken them?â
âI think my breasts got bigger.â A wonderful smile, slow, the face finely engraved with parentheses outside the lips, a smile of intelligence and humor.
ââExpel Nature through the door, sheâll come back through the window,ââ said Dr. Merriwether. Miss Ryderâs smile flowed into laughter, her face creased beautifully. An intelligent face. âFor many girls itâs like simultaneously dieting and feasting. Thereâs an awful lot of nonsense about The Pillâs side effects. Some are serious, but researchers tend to stuff a mouse with a dose thatâs a tenth its body weight, record the ensuing miseries, and then wave red flags. For the Readerâs Digest . You could kill someone with water on such an experimental base. My own view is that the chief side effects have to do with the new orderliness it introduces. As the white pills leave the blue dial, people chart their monthly psychophysical changes.â
The lecture was directed to the sheared stone pipes of Memorial Hall. He looked back to Miss Ryder. Or, at least, to her yellow dress rising over a fine mesomorphic body, the bra-less breasts, full, finely nippled, whitely isolated by bikinied sun-tan sessions. He had seen many girlsâ bodies and was habituated even to their surprises. Beauty would stream from what had appeared sheer adiposity; a slim virgin would simmer in dermal poison; another would unclothe a venereal monument, so munificent and warm that he had to force constraint into his palms on her chest and back.
âI see you donât have time to waste, Miss Ryder. But I think I wonât bother examining you today. I wonât even ask you the state of your feelings. Donât report me.â And he turned from the perhaps-offering, perhaps-display and wrote the prescription.
The dress was on one arm. Now it resumed its place, the golden hair disappeared and, reappearing, was tossed aside. The long, Indian-hued head hoisted, arched, tossed, an athleteâs movement. âThank you, Doctor. Itâs very nice of you.â
âI hope everything works out well, Miss Ryder.â
âItâll be ok. Thank you. For everything.â
Wolfâs book on thirst had an epigraph from Psalms : âMy strength was dried up like a potsherd; and my tongue cleaveth to my jaws; thou hast brought me into the dust of death.â
After Miss Ryder left, Dr. Merriwether felt a little dust in his own body. âFoolish,â he thought. He found his eyes on themselves; in the small mirror over the
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