great light, and I needed it for my
job.
“Um, so what do I have to do?” Britney
asked. She was my third Britney in a month.
Before that had been Ashlee, Jessica, and Cindi—
all hopeful, all down on their luck. They’d come to
me, hoping I’d give them the look to get hired.
Most of them assumed I’d want something other
than money in return.
I coughed. “The bathroom’s right there if you
want to check your makeup or hair. I’m useless at
that. I’ll get the studio prepped.”
“You mean—”
She thought I wanted sex. I shook my head.
“Just go ahead and get ready. I’ll get my cameras
set up.”
I fiddled with my tripod and the draping that
I’d set up. Britney had requested my “vampy”
package, so I’d gotten out the red velvet curtains
earlier, and set up the bed in the corner with silk
sheets, lamps, and candles. It looked like a scene
right out of some teenaged girl’s fantasy. Britney
probably had been one of those daydreaming teens
not too long ago. Too bad all she got was a gay
photographer to take her picture, and if she was
lucky, a career in porn.
“Um, I’m ready.” The girl stood hesitantly in
the doorway to my studio room.
“Okay, let’s start with a few in your street
clothes, some face shots, and then we’ll move on
from there.” I kept my voice businesslike but
gentle. Britney looked a little more scared than the
rest of them. I gestured to a plain wooden chair.
“Why don’t you sit on that chair backward? Rest
your face on your forearms.”
She walked hesitantly over and straddled the
chair, resting her face on her arms like I’d
instructed. I guessed she was one of those girls
who was barely out of high school. She was
eighteen, I’d made her show ID, but I would guess
she hadn’t been away from home for long.
Runaway? Kicked out? I had heard just about
every story. They usually started to talk when they
realized that I wasn’t ever going to touch them.
“This okay?”
“Looks great,” I said. Truthfully, she had too
much makeup on, and the poor thing was fake-
tanned within an inch of her life, but they all
wanted a break so desperately. I saw in her eyes
that Britney was no different. “Okay, let’s do some
shots with your bra and panties.”
“O-okay. Just take my jeans off?”
I nodded and gestured to a hook over in the
corner of the room. It was the part I hated most.
Not the actual pictures, but asking the girls to take
off their clothes. Truth was, if they wanted a job,
they’d have to do it. But it didn’t mean I liked
asking. Britney’s jeans and tank top disappeared
quickly, and she stood awkwardly by the bed. I
had to hold in a sigh. It was going to be one of
those.
“So, Britney, the way this works is I’m going
to need a variety of shots both from the front and
the back, with your underwear and then naked. It’s
best if you start in a position that’s comfortable,
and we’ll go from there, okay?”
“Okay,” she answered with a tentative smile.
She crawled, coltish and unsure, onto the bed, and
tried her best to strike a sexy pose. I started
clicking and gave her as much encouragement as I
could muster.
By the skin of our combined teeth, Britney
and I managed to get through the photo shoot
without major mishap, and enough decent shots that
I could have some ready for her to send to different
studios. Part of me wanted to tell her that anything,
even flipping burgers, was better, but then I thought
that maybe it really wasn’t so bad. “It’s just sex,”
my brother Archer always told me. “Quit taking
shit so seriously.”
“Why are you so nice?” Britney’s voice
surprised the hell out of me. I’d been in the kitchen
pouring an iced tea and letting her dress on her
own.
“What do you mean?”
“I mean, you’re the first guy I’ve met in this
business who didn’t assume I’d be ready for sex.
Why?”
I shrugged. I didn’t feel the need to tell