right?â
âI can imagine that,â said Dr. Bajwa. He was convinced, at this point, that Cuthbert was joking with himâand wasting their time.
âSo, one of the otters said,â Cuthbert had blurted, â they said, well,they said they want to be let up thaâ cuts, * the ones behind Regentâs, right? You know, with those pretty boats?â
âThey âsaid,â you say? âSaidâ?â
Cuthbert glanced down, as if mildly ashamed, and added, âI might say âyikkered,â reallyâthatâs a little more like it, actually.â
âYikkered. Otters. Cuthbert, Iââ
âExactly.â
Doctor and patient sat in a consultation room at the courtyard-facing back of a Victorian office building in north London. A rusty-red and white Afshar rug with boteh leaf designs covered most of the floor. The space smelled of fig leaves and cedar from Dr. Bajwaâs cologne, and were it not all so greatly soothing, Cuthbert might have held back more. A spray of hot green sunlight and a spring breeze trickled through the officeâs ancient diamond-mullioned casement windows the doctor always kept ever so slightly open. With one sweet new breeze, Dr. Bajwaâs hope that Cuthbert was winding him up collapsed.
âYouâre hearing animals? In your mind?â
âWhat? No.â He scrutinized his doctorâs face for a moment. âIn my ears, doc. In my lugâoles.â
Soon, the particulars came out. Cuthbert claimed that thousands of animals across Londonâcats, dogs, rats, garden foxes, lab monkeys, hares, pet gerbils, and of course zoo animalsâwere trying to speak to him.
âThey donât let up, doc,â Cuthbert said. âItâs quite difficultâto be on the receiving end, as it were.â He said he tried at these moments to imagine his long-dead grandmotherâs kind face, with her wispy-white tendrils of hair sometimes falling in her eyes. She would have gently rued Cuthbertâs whining. You didnât whine about the Wondermentsâand you didnât talk about them outside the line ofdescent. âAnd you wouldnât believe how many cats there are in this city.â
Dr. Bajwa listened, half shocked, half transfixed, and nodding more out of courtesy than acquiescence.
âThereâs a sort of naffed-off chimpanzee going off on me right now, â Cuthbert had said that day. His eyes darted around the room, as though observing the black-furred words of an ape pummeling the walls. âEâs warning me to leave him alone!â
The doctor took a deep breath and nodded his head.
âThat sounds like a very sensible approach,â he said, with a note of certified sternness in his voice.
Cuthbert puckered his lips and grazed his fingertips across his own forehead. âCould do,â he said. âSâpose.â
âAnd you remember, youâve got help, Cuthbert. Help for you, help for your body, help for your mind.â Dr. Bajwa spoke in a slow, soft cadence. âYou remember all weâve ever said, how Iâm not going to let anything happen to you, right?â
âAr, yam a chum,â slurred Cuthbert.
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DR. SARBJINDER BAJWA WAS A MUSCULAR MAN with a broad neck and great tactile power. He preferred solutions to problems that could be applied manually, if not pharmacologically. In his spare weekends, he had, among other feats, learned to pilot one of the new solarcopters, which could be spun through the most theatrical, thousand-foot-high spirals with a simple kneading motion of the hands. On his consultation desk he kept a chromed fifteen-kilo dumbbell he liked to lift between patients. He could be a touch boastful, but he was always warm, too, with long, clement eyes the burned green of cardamom and a precise beard so closely shaven it seemed more a placement mark for a beard than the thing itself. His physical might, well
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