feed my frog!â
âExcuses, excuses,â she murmured. âWhereâs Clay?â
Mack didnât answer. He disappeared quickly into the barn. Becky saw Granddad avert his eyes to toy with his stick and pocketknife as she climbed the steps, purse in hand.
âWhatâs wrong?â she asked the old man, placing an affectionate hand on his shoulder.
He shrugged, his balding silvery head bent. He was a tall man, very thin and stooped since his heart attack, and brown from years of outside work. He had age marks on the backs of his long-fingered hands and wrinkles in his face that looked like road ruts in the rain. He was sixty-six now, but he looked much older. His life had been a hard one. He and Beckyâs grandmother had lost two children in a flood and one to pneumonia. Only Beckyâs father, Scott, of all their four children, had survived to adulthood, and Scott had been a source of constant trouble to everybody. Including his wife. It said on the death certificate that Becky, Mack, and Clayâs mother, Henrietta, had died of pneumonia. But Becky was sure that she had simply given up. The responsibility for three children and a sick father, added to her own poor health and Scottâs ceaseless gambling and womanizing, had broken her spirit.
âClayâs gone off with those Harris kids,â her grandfather said finally.
âSon and Bubba?â she sighed. They had given names, but like many Southern boys, they had nicknames that had little to do with their Christian appelations. The name Bubba was common, like Son and Buster and Billy-Bob and Tub. Becky didnât even know their given names, because nobody used them. The Harris boys were in their late teens and they both had driversâ licenses. In their case, it was more like a license to kill. Both brothers were drug users and sheâd heard rumors that Son was a pusher. He drove a big blue Corvette and always had money. Heâd quit school at sixteen. Becky didnât like either one of the boys and sheâd told Clay as much. But apparently he wasnât taking any advice from his big sister if he was out with the scalawags.
âI donât know what to do,â Granger Cullen said quietly. âI tried to talk to him, but he wouldnât listen. He told me he was old enough to make his own decisions, and that you and I had no rights over him. He cussed me. Imagine that, a seventeen-year-old boy cussing his own grandfather?â
âThat doesnât sound like Clay,â she replied. âItâs only since Christmas that heâs been so unruly. Since he started hanging around with the Harris boys, really.â
âHe didnât go to school today,â her grandfather added. âHe hasnât gone for two days. The school called and wanted to know where he was. His teacher called, too. She says his grades are low enough to fail him. He wonât graduate if he canât pull them up. Then whereâll he be? Just like Scott,â he said heavily. âAnother Cullen gone bad.â
âOh, my goodness.â Rebecca sat down heavily on the porch steps, letting the wind brush her cheeks. She closed her eyes. From bad to worse, didnât the saying go?
Clay had always been a good boy, trying to help with the chores and look out for Mack, his younger brother. But in the past few months, heâd begun to change. His grades had dropped. He had become moody and withdrawn. He stayed out late and sometimes couldnât get up to go to school at all. His eyes were bloodshot and heâd come in once giggling like a little girl over nothing at allâsymptoms, Becky was to learn, of cocaine use. Sheâd never seen Clay actually use drugs, but she was certain that he was smoking pot, because sheâd smelled it on his clothes and in his room. Heâd denied it and she could never find any evidence. He was too careful.
Lately, heâd begun to resent her interference in